I have done it, I have made peace with myself and those who I have always cared about. Perhaps this is the first step to happiness, but I fear there will be many more steps to take. I am looking at the next few days and weeks with trepadation, for there is some business that I must take care of, some business that will break my heart. I fell in love, but now I realize that it will only bring me pain. To those of you who understand, please don't judge what you can never possibly understand. Many of things have I seen that have shaken me to my very core, my ability to trust was temporaily suspended. I must leave it all behind, I ask that no one follows me as I try to put this behind me. I will leave for school in August, and at that time I intend to leave this life behind and start anew. I know it will be difficult but it must be done.