Mythril is about to lose me, and he doesn't even know it. He is totally oblivous to the fact that I am about to walk away. I never thought that I would ever come to this point, but I don't have a choice anymore. He hasn't contacted me in over a week, not an e-mail or a phone call nothing. So I take the intitive and call him, only to be blown off because he's tired. Well, I am tired too, tired of trying to make him happy. Of thinking that he's the perfect all knowing man. Because he's not. And he'll hurt me if I let him, but I'm not going to. I am going to walk away. Its my only choice. And more importantly, its what I want to do. I have often prayed for the strength to take control of my life, and now I have it. I know that its going to hurt to do it, but I fear it will hurt more to continue on like nothing is changed. I don't know if I should tell him now, or wait until I get down there. He keeps assuring me that it will be easier when I get down there, but it will be harder...so much more difficult because it will mean being away from Silver. Mon Ailles Argenette, I asked for happiness and know I am refusing to release it. *takes a deep breath* p.s. David if you want to know what is going on in my life you could ask me.