Well the whole going to the movies yesterday didn't happen...with me at least...Meg, Sarah and Mike went without me. Not quite sure exactly why but oh well. Sarah and Meg are planning to go to Manhattan soon to see Mike. Mike really wants me to come too but I have to come up with a plan to get out of the house all day and night *sigh*. Damn you Mike why can't you live closer lol. Just talked to Jimmy a little while ago...he seems upset so it's probably best if I leave him alone for now. I didn't really do anything today cause I thought my brother was going to take me driving since it's been about 2 months since I last went driving UGH! Talked to Megan on the phone for a while...I still hate the fact of her not living in my backyard anymore :( I'm waiting for Ron to come online or something cause I'm bored and haven't really talked to him much lately. Jack still has me blocked...stubborn boy. And still haven't talked to Shaun since Sunday night cause um yeah he's still fucking MAD at me argg! Megan wants me to go to Waterworks with her on Monday but I don't have any money and it's that time of the month and I'm also a pussy when it comes to those damn slides lol. Eric still wants me to go out with him...he won't leave me alone about it...boy just doesn't understand what I'm going through. All this bullshit with Shaun has me so like depressed that I won't even chill with anybody except Megan. Corey really wants me to hang out with him but I'm just not up to hanging out with a guy anymore it's just so aggravating. Surprised Matt Pasquella hasn't come up with another screen name to IM me with lol. Damnit where the fuck is Matt Vreeland? I haven't talked to him in like 2 months...I miss him...he's my wrestling buddy who always kicks my ass cause he's taller and stronger but still it's fun lol...yeah you better move back down here at the end of the summer like you said you will!!! I'm waiting for my buddy Mike Rodriguez to go under his own fucking screen name so I can talk to him...silly boy :) Where the fuck is everyone tonight? Oh that's right it's a Saturday everyone is in Seaside...damn you people! That dumb bitch still hasn't answered me back since Sunday night I told her to meet me at my house if she really wants to fight...grr people make me so angry. AHH I forgot Ron's birthday is next Saturday...damnit I don't have any money :( hmm guess I'll give him an I.O.U. hehe. Anyways yeah I really think I'm going to drop out of high school this school year when I turn 18 so I can sign myself out...that's the reason why Jack stopped talking to me and blocked me cause he doesn't want me to ruin my "future". I want to hang out with my ex boyfriend Greg, yeah I used to be enemies with him but he was nice to me when I was over his house with Megan...he got fucking hot too...what the fuck is up with the hot 15 year olds lately I mean damn! Finally got my period the other night it was a month late again...irregular period not cool...might need a minor surgery too :( I had a crazy ass dream about Tommy the other night...it was SO weird lol. Still can't believe he put a system in his piece of shit car tisk tisk. Ugh this sucks I miss John too all cause of Shaun I can't see him either...why must you be so angry with me all the time...you should be mad at that bitch not me! Just read Jim's new entry...another disappointment but what can I do...the boy isn't mine anymore *sigh* man those were the good times *clears throat* but right can't let those...things...get in the way. Not so sure if meeting Jim is such a good idea anymore...*looks side to side* But anyways Robin is supposed to get out on parol soon I can't wait I've missed him so much. ~ FrEe RoBo ~ Happy Birthday Robin!!! I'm starting to get a little worried about Ron...he hasn't been on since this morning and I didn't get to talk to him then either. Just went under my other screen name and Jack isn't on either grr another boy to be worried about. Well that seems to be it for now...peace out!