( 3:20am )... Turns out that Megan isn't moving until like a week from now from what she told me. She came over at like 9:30pm cause Jen was leaving to go to Lee's house to party with her boyfriend. This kid Mike was supposed to pick Megan up around 8pm and he didn't fucking come until 2:30AM!!! He kept calling my house waking up my parents I seriously wanted to shoot the fucker! I'm so gonna get yelled at tomorrow I know it. Anyways... I'm supposed to meet that 21 year old Kevin dude tomorrow and get some alcohol finally... then I'm heading to Bavaro's house to chill with him :) Ugh it sucked so bad watching the ball drop and not being able to kiss Matt... I just wanted to shoot myself. Oh yeah and Bavaro was telling me that Matt isn't talking to me anymore cause of me hooking up with Ron every Saturday and how I cheated on him... I know this... I kicked Ron and the rest of them out of my life for good like a week ago or so... and I told Matt this... but he won't listen to me! And if one more person tells me to move on I'm gonna stab them like this fucker I'm talking to right now. And once again fucking Kevin (not the 21 year old) is IMing me looking for Megan.