SUNDAY... I told Ron to leave to come over at 8:45am...I hear a knock on my door I was like oh God who could this be...turns out to be Ron lol. I was like "why the fuck are you here so early I said to leave at 8:45 not be here by 8:45." But he said he had to come that early cause he was sleeping over Pete's house. So yeah as usual me and Ron hooked up and when we were doing it doggy style he pulled out and went up my ass without warning me...it hurt so fucking bad and it still hurts lmao! I'm never doing that shit again ugh! Sneaky bastard lol! Corey kept bugging me online asking me if I would kiss him and I was being all sneaky and evil like always so I was like..."alright if you want to kiss me you have to kiss me in front of everyone in gym class" lol. And we made plans for him to come over after school. MONDAY (yesterday)... Well Corey never kissed me in gym class like he was supposed to but he kept looking back at me when he was talking to his friends lol. He came over after school...I refused to rub his back and he wanted me to cuddle with him on my bed so I did. Then we somehow started making out...then dry fucking...then he fingered me...ate me out...but I kept saying no about fucking...but I eventually gave in so we fucked and I gave him head until he cummed in my mouth. Later on that night I told Ron and yeah he's not talking to me cause he's beyond pissed. I told Jimmy G and he never wants to talk to me again...so everyone thinks I'm a slut now...like they didn't before that lol. Jack wasn't too happy about it. Jesus is pissed at me about cheating on Ron like that. Sarah and Melissa were like about to throw up. Alicia and Zinab just thought it was gross lol. ( Convo with Jimmy G )... darkstar20grnday: ur the sickest person i know JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: it shudnt matter 2 u darkstar20grnday: just stop talking to me JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: UR DA 1 WHO FUCKING IM'D ME darkstar20grnday: i liked u so much better when u weren't such a slut JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: hmph datz funny i recall dat u left me b4 i became a slut darkstar20grnday: yeha i know darkstar20grnday: i still liked u then tho JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ya well usually when sum1 likez sum1 they dont leave dem darkstar20grnday: yeah well i didn't like u like that darkstar20grnday: but i respected u as a person then darkstar20grnday: and i was still ur friend JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ya well lemme tell ya u deserve a noble award 4 bein a true frend cuz u left my life how many timez darkstar20grnday: you've fucked a guy how many times since like two days JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: o0o i fucked my bf n' 1 of my close frendz not like itz sum1 off da streetz darkstar20grnday: u said u'd never do anything with him darkstar20grnday: did u give him head to JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ya JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: dat was cuz i thought he was such a faggot but hez been there 4 me more den alot of ppl have JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ive been frendz wit da boy since 2nd grade JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: but u def shudnt be da 1 to talk im not da only 1 whoz gotten worse over da past yr darkstar20grnday: oh fuck u darkstar20grnday: i'm just fine JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: druggie darkstar20grnday: yeah darkstar20grnday: so what darkstar20grnday: i'm doing just fine JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ya ok darkstar20grnday: yup darkstar20grnday: at least i'm not gonna have kids by like next year darkstar20grnday: whore darkstar20grnday is away at 4:25:14 PM. darkstar20grnday returned at 4:26:30 PM. JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: haha ok explainz y ive been fuckin guyz for 7 monthz now n' havent gotten pregnant yet...i wudnt care if i got pregnant newayz me n' ron dont care if we have kidz n' we wanna get married n' shit since u moved on n' dont want me no more darkstar20grnday: good darkstar20grnday: u and gopher face do that darkstar20grnday: u can have plenty of little gerbals together JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ur jealous apparently cuz den u wudnt be fuckin talkin darkstar20grnday: haha no darkstar20grnday: i have a girl darkstar20grnday: that i plan on marrying darkstar20grnday: thats why i moved on darkstar20grnday: bitch JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yupp ima bitch datz y u were plannin 2 ask me out if thingz went well when we were goin 2 meet rite darkstar20grnday is away at 4:30:04 PM. JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ron tried 2 break ur bracelet off my wristz after i told him it was from u when he asked but i told him i'd kill him if he did but now im startin 2 think twice TUESDAY (today at 4:58pm)... Umm well...that shit about screwing Corey got around school pretty fast...Corey denied everything so now I look like a fucking idiot...speaking of which I'm not talking to him anymore because of that. Grrr!!! I still haven't talked to Ron since last night. For the love of God I hope he doesn't break up with me...I'll fucking bug out if he does. This fucking sucks big balls man. But Jimmy G made me realize who I used to be and who I should be...and now is the time to be that person again...but I don't think I can do it without him by my side helping me through everything like the good old days. I'm through with it...I'm never cheating again...I'm going to stop being such a slut. Why is that? Because that's not who I am. And it's not who I want to be. I hate hurting the ones I love. ***Never letting go***