( 5:30pm )... Oh my God I am soooo fucking pissed off right now... that 21 year old Kevin dude... he fucking changes his mind and said he'll get it for me if I go with him... and I have no fucking reason to get out of the fucking house. THIS IS THE WORST FUCKING YEAR OF MY LIFE!!! He couldn't have done it yesterday fucking grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! Matthew never came over . that sucks so bad I really wanted to spend New Year's Eve with him. My brother came over with his fiance before... my brother thought my iguana was cool unlike my parents. And he said if Megan needed somewhere to crash that she's more than welcome to crash at his place... too bad I can't fucking get in touch with her I hope she didn't leave already. ( 7:30pm )... Well I called Jen's house... Jen is going to a party at Lee's with her boyfriend... Megan is over at her house... but she's being picked up by Vanessa... Alicia is probably going to her aunts... so this sucks. I'm cool with Sarah now so that's good. This bites... spending New Year's Eve in my room on the computer with nobody but my shitty ass parents in their room. And no one to kiss when the ball drops :( Sarah's away message is right... why do we love people who don't think twice about us... I don't know why either.