( 7:30pm )... Last night Joe IM'd me telling me that Matt backstabbed him this and that...so they were basically in a fight...about this girl Chelsea. Today I sort of bugged out on Matt during lunch about the whole Joe and Chelsea situation. So Matt walked away and we didn't talk the rest of the lunch period. During gym, my teacher was like giving us a speech and I got done eating cookies...and I wound up belching so fucking loud and everyone turned around and stared at me lmao! Me and Zinab were at my locker...and she decided to turn the lock on Chris's locker cause he doesn't know his combination...and he couldn't get his locker open awwww...he was so mad at her...I think he's mad at me too cause he wouldn't talk to me but it wasn't me that did it. During lunch he through his lunch bag at her and I yelled out to him "Chrissss don't be mad at me I didn't do anything" and his friends were cracking up and yelled to Zinab telling her good job or something like that I don't know I forgot lol. In Geometry before that happened...he asked me what I got in Computer Graphic Design (he's in that class too)...and I was like "he gave me an A+" and I was like "what did he give you?" and Chris was like "I don't remember" and he had like an embarassed smile on his face...I already knew what his grade was anyway...lol he got a "D" lmao! Awww poor Chris. Didn't get to see Larry today...oh well. I get home and talk to Joe online...then ran most of the way to his house...random kids came up to me asking if I was still going out with Matt lol...then I see him skateboarding on the phone and he ran inside and this kid came up to me and he's like Matt ran away from you and I'm like I know. Got to Joe's and we chilled there for a while...he was skateboarding trying to do moves and shit...and he says that I have to become skater lol. Then Andrew showed up with this kid...then they left...me and Joe went to Matt's. Joe fucking threw a orange at my head and my hair is all sticky now and it got in my ear too lol. I was skateboarding on his skateboard...almost broke ass lol but hey I'm getting better at it lol. Matt answered the door and had a knife in his hand and told me to tell Joe to get out of his driveway and I said no. Matt was like all upset cause everyone is like mad at him and he thought I walked out of his life. He then put the knife to my stomach like he was gonna stab me but he was kidding around. He went inside. Told Angela (his little sister) to go find Matt...she couldn't find him so I go into the house with her looking for him. We found him trying to hang himself in the backyard...I had to like loosin the knot and get it off his neck and shit...I never been that scared in my whole entire life...Angela was crying and screaming. I was starting to cry and Matt was crying on my shoulder apologizing. I was telling him to never do that again, that I would never walk out of his life and that he's all I have left and telling him it's gonna be okay. So I'm standing there holding and hugging him for like 10 minutes and then someone called and he didn't know who it was and told them off and threw the phone at the fence. We went out front and I told Joe what happened...(Matt and Joe were still in a fight)...Matt goes back inside...I went looking for him...couldn't find him again so I started getting really worried pacing back and forth in front of the house...he wound up being on the roof of the house. We eventually got him to come down. He started throwing the pumpkins at his garage door and picked all the seeds from the pumpkin...don't ask why lol. Marjorie (my neighbor) and Chelsea kept calling Matt like crazy and Matt kept hanging up on them...he said he wants nothing to do with Marjorie and Chelsea anymore. You would think if they really gave a shit that they would be at the house trying to save Matt like me. Marjorie knew Matt was going to try to kill himself before I did and I was the one who was there stopping him...not her! Dumb bitch. Anyways...Joe left eventually...me and Matt were kissing and shit and he was telling me that he loves me. That made me feel alot better. So I had to leave cause I really wasn't supposed to be there cause he's grounded and he's not allowed to have anybody over when his parents aren't there anymore lol. But yeah Matt...don't ever do that again please...you know that I am always here for you no matter how fucking mad I am at you...I would never walk out of your life or turn my back on you. You mean everything to me and I would never hurt you like that...I love you too much and I don't ever want to lose you...we may not be going out but I still care about you alot babe. I got home and talked to Zinab, Frankie, Jack, Joe online... Frankie's mad at me again...what else is new. Waiting for my mom to get home from food shopping...I'm starving lol...I'm gonna make Mozzarella sticks hehe yummy. I'll update later if anything happens...peace!