I tried emailing Ron and he didn't respond...from what I hear he has a new girlfriend already and he was making out with her after the game :( God I like tried everything to get him back and nothing is working. I would take a bullet for him. I'd die to have his love back. Well anyway here's that email I sent him, it's extremely long lol... "Ron please can you just hear me out. I'm not saying that you have to respond to this or forgive me...even though I would like you to. I am really really sorry you have no idea...I seriously never meant for that to happen I didn't do it on purpose I swear to God. I didn't mean to hurt you, I hate hurting you. I know that you will never forgive me or talk to me again but I just want to tell you some things that I never got a chance to tell you...I never wanted to lose you...ever...I finally know what I want now...and that is you...and only you. I want to be with you forever. I know that I will never be good enough for you but I try so hard to be perfect. No matter how much you hate me I will always be here for you and I will always love you...I will never let go. I realized that it wasn't Jim or Shaun that I truly loved...it was you all along. Right now you're probably thinking that I'm bullshitting you but I'm not I really mean what I just said. I understand if you never want to talk to me again especially after all the shit I've put you through. But you are the only one who ever made me happy. Being with you was like a dream come true. I wish I was there right now telling you this then maybe you would believe me if it was in person. I know that you have heard this so many times but now I'm realizing how much you really mean to me and I never felt like this towards anybody before. Right now I'm crying cause all this shit I'm saying is coming from my heart...I know I've hurt you so much and I don't think there has been a second that went by without me thinking of you and regretting what I've done. I've been thinking long and hard about this and I'm going to change back to the girl you fell in love with cause I know that the person I am now is hurting you so much. I wish I could go back in time and change it all...back when it was so perfect in the beginning. You are the reason why I'm still here today. I wish we could just forget about this and start over and be able to trust each other again. Everynight I cry myself to sleep praying to God that you will at least talk to me...I look at the pictures of me and you all the time picturing being in your arms again. Nothing means more to me than what we have shared. I was too shy to let you know that you are my weakness. You made my life complete and I'm glad that you came into my life, what I hate is why it took so long to find you. Don't you know that you will always be the most perfect guy in the world in my eyes. Even when you get on my last nerve I still can't see myself without you in my life. Why do you think I'm always running back to you, it's because I know you're the one. I fall in love with you more each day. Look how far we have come we shouldn't give it all up now. I may not have your heart but you will always have mine no matter how much you hate me. I regret everytime I left you. Baby I will always love you forever and no one could ever change that. I promise you that I will never do anything like that to hurt you again...I promise you that I'm yours and only yours. I promise you forever. I love you to death." I wish I knew what to do to make things right again. I want him back more than anything in the world. I'm like dead on serious when I say that I'm "in" love with Ron and that I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I just realized how much he really loved me, I spent my whole day reading old conversations I had with him...and in every single one it had an "I love you" in it. Some had "I love you to death"..."I would never yell or hurt you" etc. I lost my entire world. He was always there for me when I needed him yet I took advantage of him like a fucking idiot that I am. My heart is like shattered in pieces right now and I'm trying so hard to not break down and cry. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH RON...MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF!!! UPDATE: ( 10:25pm ) ...conversation with Ron... JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: do u want da bracelet back? RONC495401: no keep it JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: y? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: im sendin bac jimz 2 RONC495401: bc i gave it to u JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u dont like me nemore nor want nethin 2 do wit me n' plus im not gonna be around 2 wear it nemore neway RONC495401: don'y say that shit that fuck up JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: im bein dead on serious RONC495401: yeww JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u dont want me in ur life nemore so ill leave u n' ur new gf alone JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: jus want u 2 kno dat i never meant ne of dat 2 happen n' i love u more den life itself...goodbye