Last night was possibly one of the worst nights of my life. Me and Mike got in the biggest fight. I got mad about his "friend" that's a girl, leaving him comments saying that she wants to bang him and have his kids. He thought it was wrong for me to flip out about it cus she lives in Florida... yet they've met once before cus she came up to see him. So yeah you never know if that were to happen again that's why I was all protective over him. Anyways, when I mentioned that Brian was coming home soon and I'm gonna chill with him when he does... Mike gets all fuckin pissed off about it. Like what the fuck!?! How is he going to get mad about me chilling with someone I've never hooked up with and someone that has alot of respect for me and Mike. That is what I would like to call a hypocrite. And Mike decided to mimick me to piss me off more. So I got really mad and posted a bulletin on myspace telling guys to leave dirty comments to me on my pics. Mike got really pissed off about that and his parents hate me now because of it. That tore me apart even more... cus I love his parents and his brother and sisters, and now his parents hate me. No matter what I do or say, I can't do anything right, or make anyone happy. I'm nothing but a fuck up, I don't know why he's even still with me. Mike deserves so much better. I'm a shitty ass girlfriend. But he refuses to give up on me and wants to help me get my life together. Which I appreciate alot but I don't know. I just wish everything would be back to normal and I wish I could turn back time and take everything back and stop hurting Mike all the time. Then Corey IM'd me starting shit. Calling me a slut and a douche bag and that I'm dirty, etc. And he told me to go slit my wrists again. Fuckin asshole! I cried myself to sleep last night praying to God that I don't lose him and to give me the strength to make everything right again. I cried again this morning before I went to school and I tried so hard to hold back the tears during school. Sarah was supposed to take me to the mall today to talk about everything that's been going on and she fuckin ditched me, what the fuck else is new. So Alicia took me instead and we met up with her friend Brittany. We just walked around the mall and out of no where Steve yelled my name and I turn around and there he was with Kristina, Ian, and Anthony. So we're all chillen in Spencers making asses out of ourselves. Steve was being his goofy self haha. Yeah and he tried cheering me up too. Thanks Steve, if you're reading this lol. Best friends forever man! But anyways we broke apart and we decided to go up and down on the escalators and play on this stupid thing on the floor in the mall, don't ask lol. Brittany put a sticky tag thing on Alicia's back and she didn't notice until one of the security guards was like "size 10 short eh?" haha! So yeah, that was pretty much what's been going on lately. I love you Mike