Megan came over after midnight cause she got in a fight with her dad... and Megan got me a wristband of Green Day, bracelets and socks from Hot Topic the socks is the happy bunny that says "It's cute how stupid you are." My sister Barbie came over with her boyfriend Ariel and my nephew Jonathan. He turned 14 on Christmas Eve. They gave me $20. Then they left... my brother Greg and his fiance Keli came over. They gave me $50 and a foamy shirt that says... "Someone should stab you in the eye with a really hot french fry" lol that shit's funny as hell. All they could talk about was how Keli's mom is in the hospital and she's dying from cancer and shit like that I was so depressed and I was crying and shit. They gave Meg $20 along with my parents. My dad went with them to the hospital. Then my sister Beverly and her husband Adam and the little baby Charlotte came over. I was holding the little angel, she was playing with my bracelets... the whole time I was holding her I was like daydreaming thinking that she was mine and Matt's kid... pathetic I know :( But anyways they got me clothes and a purse from Hot Topic and also a wristband thing of Good Charlotte lol. Oh yeah my parents got me South Pole clothes (ugh) and a 5 cd changer system, makeup, and scratch off tickets which I only won $20 out of that. Today... My neice Melissa and her boyfriend Steve came over for a little while. I was on the phone with Alicia all night. Then Zinab was talking to Matt even though I didn't tell her to... but whatever. And then I tried talking to him and that didn't work out. I don't care if Matt believes me or not anymore about me not getting with Ronnie anymore. Even though I know I'm not gonna get him back I'm still gonna change for him anyway. No longer am I gonna have Ron and the rest of the Brick crew in my life... I'm through with them. Why keep assholes in my life that have always treated me like shit... I fucked things up so bad for me and Matt, someone I love more than anything, someone that I've always dreamed of having. Anyways... me and Alicia are gonna chill tomorrow and probably go to the petshop next to Cost Cutters and since I have $90 I might buy myself a lil lizard... if I have enough for the accessories and shit... otherwise I'll buy a different animal that I can afford lol. Maybe I'll visit my neice Melissa at work too... since she works at Ken's Hardware which is in the same plaza.