Alot has happened in the past like week... School sucks...my guidance counselor said if I changed my computer class to study hall it will appear as an F in computers on my report card bringing my GPA down...that's fucked up. Not only that but I think I'm failing like 3-4 classes lol. I have a book report due on Tuesday and I haven't even started on it yet...I have a science project due on the Monday we get back from the 4 day weekend...THIS SUCKS!!! Matt wanted me to break up with Marjorie for him cause he couldn't stand her anymore. She didn't take it to well. She got snotty with me so I got snotty with her. She's now scared of me she hid behind the tree yesterday lol. Her sister best keep her mouth shut calling me a bitch behind my back HA!!! Some kid named Nick was at my bus stop and he was talking shit about Matt so I bugged out on him, Shaun and his 2 friends came over and were talking shit about Matt and his friends and also talking shit about Sarah so I bugged on them and they shut their mouths so damn fast, Stefano mouthed off to Matt the other day saying "if you ever break up with Pam for another girl again I'm gonna punch you in the face" and Stefano said to me on the bus that afternoon "see Pam I got your back" and I was like "I didn't appreciate that Stefano" and he was like "I was trying to help" and I'm like "I know but I really didn't appreciate what you said." Me and Matt were back to normal but still not going out...now he's mad at me again. Zinab and Katie keep hitting him all the time so now he's taking it out on me by not chilling with me during lunch anymore which is completely fucked up. I also broke up with Ron again. I was chilling with Tommy and Megan...that was interesting...then Danny pulled up...their so funny and adorable. Sarah and Megan were supposed to go to NYC but they wound up coming to my house at 2:30 in the morning throwing rocks at my window trying to wake me up but they decided to sneak into my house and jump on top of me while I was sleeping lol. So we all slept in my bed together. Jen ditched us we were supposed to go to the movies but she decided to hang with her boyfriend instead. Me and Megan rented movies "White Chicks", "Frankenfish", "Garfield". Then we headed up to McDonald's and saw Mike Rodriguez awwwww!!! Went back to my house to watch the movies, talk on the phone and online. I talked to Frankie so here's that conversation... JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yo were you chillen with ron earlier FCARGO 411: no i only saw him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: he was being such an ass 2 me 2day 4 like no reason FCARGO 411: yeh he was trien to hook up with my ex i fuckin hate him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i asked him 2 come over n' he told me he was goin 2 his auntz n' his away said "hanging out with jack, kaity, jess, and nikki bbl" and i bugged out on him i was like "u fuckin liar n' u wonder y we're not goin out nemore" n' he came bac n' said "good" and signed off JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ewww whut a douche abg JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: bag* JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: who jess? he callz her eggface all da time so hez apparently tryin 2 use her FCARGO 411: yep FCARGO 411: he got jess nd nikkin drunk and started touchn her and shit JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: hez fucked up FCARGO 411: thats what i heard from3 diff people JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: datz not like him FCARGO 411: i fuckin ahte him FCARGO 411: oh yeh u dnt no the ronnie i no FCARGO 411: u may say thats nto liek him but bullshit FCARGO 411: he was gettin the girls drunk and i saw them drunk FCARGO 411: ronnie wasnt drinkin tho FCARGO 411: btu hes a fuck asshole FCARGO 411: i thought he was my friend JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: well den i guess da past 2 1/2 yrz dat ive known him is pointless JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i seriously cant believe him FCARGO 411: i can hes a fuckin asshole FCARGO 411: nd hes gunna do that shit with someone i still have feelings for FCARGO 411: i cnt wait to fuckin talk to him FCARGO 411: i wood beat the livin shit outta ronnie JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: im like in shock dat he wud do dat FCARGO 411: its not even worth it tho cuz i no id kill the fuckin kid JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: guess he can get pretty desperate when i dont put out FCARGO 411: pretty desperate? so yur callin jess somthing bad? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: datz considered like statutory rape or however u spell it JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no i mean 2 get her drunk n' shit FCARGO 411: oh JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: jus 2 get wit her FCARGO 411: i no FCARGO 411: hes fuckin 18 FCARGO 411: pam u dnt no how fuckin mad i am JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: believe me i have an idea FCARGO 411: i already put a fuckin hole through my wall JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol soundz like ron...he did dat once when i broke up wit him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: did u talk 2 jack bout dis? FCARGO 411: nope hes not on JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: hez probably still out wit ron FCARGO 411: prolly JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: did he try nethin wit kaity or nikki? FCARGO 411: if i hear that ron hooked up with her i will cry FCARGO 411: no not that i no of JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: wait rnt u 2 broken up? FCARGO 411: yeh but still FCARGO 411: i kinda have feelings for her JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: im sure jess wudnt hook up wit ronnie JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: true FCARGO 411: alright lets stop talkin bout this lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol sry FCARGO 411: its all good i was horny aS hell b4 but then i found out JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: haha JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: randomness FCARGO 411: yeh lol FCARGO 411: nice pics lol FCARGO 411: im lookin now JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: wait whut!?! JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: whut picz FCARGO 411: nice bod FCARGO 411: in yru prfile JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: o0o JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i thought u were talkin bout diff picz FCARGO 411: no lol FCARGO 411: yur boobs r huge FCARGO 411: freakin melons lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol they really rnt JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: they jus look like dat in da pic FCARGO 411: oh idk FCARGO 411: we just gotta chill sumtime i will have to see in person maybe more;-) JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: hahaha FCARGO 411: yur prolly like eww fuck no JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: nah i cant judge unless i meet da person 1st FCARGO 411: true JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: how old r u again FCARGO 411: 15 i turn 16 feb 21 FCARGO 411: i look like 17 JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol ya FCARGO 411: but who knows i look older than ron FCARGO 411: me nd him r so diff FCARGO 411: like my teeth r better FCARGO 411: better smile better hair JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lmao FCARGO 411: good i actually have muscles in my arms and not sticks JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u kno da kid they want u 2 fight have u heard whut he callz ron? FCARGO 411: nd bascically im nto two faced and not a pussy FCARGO 411: nope what JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol true JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: he callz ron an airport sayin his teeth r big enuf 2 land planez on FCARGO 411: lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: so nethin new FCARGO 411: eh nah JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: dat sux FCARGO 411: im def gettin horny agen thats kinda new lol FCARGO 411: how bout u JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol not gonna ask how u got horny JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: jus drama datz basically whutz new now a dayz FCARGO 411: yeah FCARGO 411: i got horny from lokin at yur pics lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol oh FCARGO 411: the one where yur pullin down yur pants FCARGO 411: showin that lacedthong JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ha FCARGO 411: yeh FCARGO 411: ight this def isnt gunna go newhere with this con FCARGO 411: lets i guess think of somthing else JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol true JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: whut u doin on da 4 day weekend FCARGO 411: hmm FCARGO 411: not sure how about u JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: was supposed to chill with ronnie but fuck dat shit FCARGO 411: def dnt JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i wont after whut he did 2 u n' jess FCARGO 411: yo if u hang with him this weekend im gunna b so disappointed in u FCARGO 411: nd u FCARGO 411: hes supposed to like u FCARGO 411: or w/e he says JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ya i kno FCARGO 411: nd he went behind yur back JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: but he def doeznt kno how 2 show it...he like makez planz wit me 4 like da whole day n' he windz up leaving or taking me home right after we hook up FCARGO 411: hmm FCARGO 411: nd yur still with him? FCARGO 411: pam hes usen u for sex JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: nah i dumped him a few dayz ago FCARGO 411: thats it JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i noticed FCARGO 411: stop seeing him FCARGO 411: he makes u sound so slutty JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: according to da rest of his frendz i am FCARGO 411: idk i dnt think u r but i do think he tries to put u down liek one and treats u poorly FCARGO 411: fuck him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ya FCARGO 411: idk wsat to say nemore JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i used 2 think jack was my best frend until he started callin me a slut 2 FCARGO 411: just u shoodnt be wit him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: im not wit him FCARGO 411: jacks so 2 faced he goes behind my back JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i seriously must have broken up with him over a million times in the past whut 2 yrz FCARGO 411: he tried hookin up with jess wen i was goin out with her fuck him FCARGO 411: jack is a slut if nething JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: jess is also jackz ex 2 JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: doeznt jack have a gf tho...kaity FCARGO 411: ok butjack also had a g/f wen he tried to hook up with jess wen i was going out with her FCARGO 411: yep JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: n' he was yellin at me bout cheatin on ronny n' matt omg JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: whut a hypocrite FCARGO 411: yep FCARGO 411: thats jack for ya FCARGO 411: do u have a digital cam? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: digi/web ya FCARGO 411: yur def gunna say no but im really horny so im jsut gunna ask neway FCARGO 411: cood i have nude pics or pic or somthing JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: maybe sum other time cuz i cant redownload dem when my rentz r awake FCARGO 411: o ok FCARGO 411: what about thong pics same thing? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ya FCARGO 411: k FCARGO 411: thats cool maybe some other time i gess JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: surprised u havent seen dem already since ronnie letz every1 go in2 his mail FCARGO 411: ha hes an ass FCARGO 411: but nope FCARGO 411: i def wood liek to see one tho FCARGO 411: btu i wood want yur permission first FCARGO 411: nd iw oodnt wanna b at rons lokoin at them FCARGO 411: i wood want u yurself to send them JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ur a guy of course u wud want 2 see lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: true FCARGO 411: yeh but thsat yurs and rons business so iw oodnt just looka t them with out u noin JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: thanx...u r so diff from da rest of da brick guyz itz very surprising FCARGO 411: hah FCARGO 411: im just not an asshole JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: it is like i thought every guy from brick is a complete asshole but u changed dat FCARGO 411: and i no how yur supposed to treat a girl JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ha wow 2 minds think alike FCARGO 411: yeh FCARGO 411: ryte JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol FCARGO 411: so how was yru halloween JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ourz is 2morrow FCARGO 411: really* FCARGO 411: ?* JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yupp FCARGO 411: i thought tomsriver duz it the day b4 JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: they changed it so many ppl kept complaining we never have it on da actual halloween so da mayor changed it FCARGO 411: ohhh FCARGO 411: brb JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ok FCARGO 411 is away at 9:51:07 PM. FCARGO 411 returned at 9:55:28 PM. FCARGO 411: back JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ok FCARGO 411: k JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: im not gonna go trick or treatin, dont have a costume plus im 2 old lol FCARGO 411: lol FCARGO 411: im just gunna go around my block nd im gunna scare kids JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: haha FCARGO 411: yeh FCARGO 411 is away at 9:59:02 PM. FCARGO 411 returned at 10:00:57 PM. FCARGO 411: im so sad JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: im sorry FCARGO 411: its not yur fault JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i kno but i still feel bad FCARGO 411: eh dnt FCARGO 411: its my fault JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: how? FCARGO 411: once i heard i shood have ddid somthing about it JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i kno whut u mean, but therez still time u dont have 2 do it right away ya kno whut i mean FCARGO 411: yea JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: have u talked 2 jess since it happened FCARGO 411: nope JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: hmm JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: try callin her celly? FCARGO 411: nah i dnt even wanna talk to her FCARGO 411: im digusted FCARGO 411: i thoughtg she was better than that JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: do u kno 4 a fact dat they hooked up FCARGO 411: and what ever ronnies mouth touches im not touchin newhere he put his mouth u no? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: true but do u kno if they did hook up or nethin? FCARGO 411: i no he was feelin her like sexually not sure botu hookin up i bet they prolly did JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i dont think she wud tho i mean itz ronnie come on da only person dat wud hook up wit him was me lol *makin fun of myself* lol FCARGO 411: lol FCARGO 411: nah she was drunk tho so u no how that whole thing is FCARGO 411: if we broke up a day ago and shes hookin up with people already i will never talk to her agen if i find ouit they went out JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i think drinkin is really stupid cuz u cant control ur actionz datz y i dont drink FCARGO 411: yep same here FCARGO 411: i get into too many fights JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol i get in2 too many fightz sober, hell wud be broken loose if i was drunk lol FCARGO 411: lol; FCARGO 411: nah nd this one time i was beatin this kid at party and i didnt even no how bad he was until my frend showed me a picture he had a flat lip fuckin cuts in hi face 2 black eyes and a broken nose JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: damn FCARGO 411: i was wasted i cnt control myself JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: soundz like it FCARGO 411: nd this other time i drove my dad truck on the other side of brick to pick up some girl lol FCARGO 411: she didnt go tho she knew i was drunk so i cam back JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: o god lol FCARGO 411: idk im irish im a crazy kid wen im drunk JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol im irish 2!!! FCARGO 411: im like 85% JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: idk whut % i am but i kno im part irish lol FCARGO 411: like i miss it i miss the feeling but i dnt miss the truble so i just figured not to touch the stuff agen JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: good boy JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: well im gonna go downstairz n' watch a movie wit my frend cuz i sorta left her alone down there for over an hour lol so ill ttyl, if u ever need ne1 to talk to im alwayz here FCARGO 411: ight thanx FCARGO 411: seeya JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: netime peace Then after that I talked to Jess... JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: hey, you don't know me but did ron try to get with you? xoCRAZYchick22: no JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: are you sure? cause that's what frankie was telling me xoCRAZYchick22: idk it was confusing JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: how was it confusing, ron got you drunk and touched you in a sexual way...from what i was told xoCRAZYchick22: idk i didnt realize what happened until after JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: you're what 14/15 why are you even drinking anyway it's stupid it just gets you into more trouble xoCRAZYchick22: i know JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: frankie wants to like kill ron now he's so upset xoCRAZYchick22: i know xoCRAZYchick22: i know, we had a talk dn eveyrthing JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: good xoCRAZYchick22: i know frank cares about me alot nd shyt . . nd i never meant to hurt him . . nd i was drinking . . ronnie took advantage of me . . frank found out . . nd thats what happened JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: what exactly did ron do to you xoCRAZYchick22: he was helping me nd shit when i was sick . . nd he kissed me . . it wasnt a big deal JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: jess you may not think it's a big deal but trust me it is, cause you never know it could've been some random guy and not ron, and it could have gone further xoCRAZYchick22: i know . . nd im so fucking stupid for what happened JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: you're not stupid you were just acting like any other teen you just made a mistake that's all xoCRAZYchick22: like literally, im so pissed off nd im pissed that ronnie did that to me nd gave me liquor xoCRAZYchick22: like after it all happened . . i was like wow what the fuck just happened JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: typical boy...and to think i've put up with that for the past 2 years JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i heard jack tried to get with you too, is that true? xoCRAZYchick22: nd i feel horrible . . bc i thought of holy shit . . what is pam gunna think JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yeah i just basically bugged the fuck out on him, cause that isn't like him, he pisses me off so much he never learns he thinks i won't find any of this shit out xoCRAZYchick22: are u mad at me? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: nah i'm not mad at you JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i have no right to be mad at you it wasn't your fault...it's his fault xoCRAZYchick22: cuz i kno u nd him have shit going on . . nd i rele never menant to hurt anyone by this stupid fuckign mistake i made JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: it's all ron's fault he shouldn't have gave you any alcohol and he told me he quit drinking so he's an asshole for lying to me for the billionth time xoCRAZYchick22: are u still with him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no xoCRAZYchick22: do u still like him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yeah but i just can't handle anything with him anymore it's just too much, he thinks he treats me good but he really doesn't, feels like he's using me JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: that boy has some nerve, he doesn't wanna talk to me ever again cause he saw the convo between me and my other ex and i was calling ron names or some shit i was pissed at him that day i didn't mean any of it, you would think i would stop talking to him after what happened xoCRAZYchick22: pam u dunt need him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i know i don't but it's hard xoCRAZYchick22: i know i know JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: why aren't you and frankie going out anymore if you don't mind me asking, you don't have to tell me if you don't want to xoCRAZYchick22: idk he didnt like me anymore nd we broke up . . nd now he lieks me again . . nd everything is so fucke dup . . bc 2 other guys like me . . nd frank is telling em that he regrets breaking up with me . . nd im just rele confused nd dunt kno wut to think JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: well after what happened i can tell he really likes you, he's a good guy from what i know so far xoCRAZYchick22: what does he tell you' JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: about the whole ron situation tonight he was bugging out saying he was gonna kill ron and that he was really upset and hates ron...if he didn't like you he wouldn't have cared xoCRAZYchick22: yeah . . i know xoCRAZYchick22: but now these otehr kids like me . . nd i dunt know what to do JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: don't rush into anything take your time to think about it, your heart will tell you what you want xoCRAZYchick22: but liek this is what happened last time . . i had to pik between frank nd this one kid . . nd after a while of thinking nd hanging out with them both . . i piekd frank . . nd look where it got me, it got me no where JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: everything takes time...let a few days go by so everyone can cool off xoCRAZYchick22: has n e one ever told u that ur a good advice giver lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol everyone seems to come to me with their problems but it doesn't bother me i like helping people out xoCRAZYchick22: thats good xoCRAZYchick22: have u ever heard about me before JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yeah xoCRAZYchick22: because ive heard about u lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yeah you probably heard alot of bad stuff about me that probably ain't even true xoCRAZYchick22: o really xoCRAZYchick22: first tell me what u know about me . . then ill tell u my shit JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: well i know that you went out with jack and frankie, you hang out with the guys all the time, i don't really know that much xoCRAZYchick22: hm xoCRAZYchick22: does anyone talk shit about me to u xoCRAZYchick22: like jack JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: not that i can remember xoCRAZYchick22: hm thast good . . yeah me nd jack went out in the summer time . . but it was dumb . . weve liked eachotehr for a long time on nd off . . now hes going out with my friend ./ . so eveyrthings good JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yeah and it's probably not gonna last since jack seems to break up with his gf's alot xoCRAZYchick22: idk mann . . he lieks her ALOT JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol maybe there is hope for him after all xoCRAZYchick22: he tells me he loves her nd shit . . nd hes always all cuddley with her xoCRAZYchick22: idk its rele cute lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: that's good xoCRAZYchick22: yeah, im happy for him . . nd its weird that i am too, bc usually i always like the kid nd im a jealous bitch at eveyrthing he does JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i went out with jack for like 4 days and then he broke up with me saying it feels weird lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yeah i know what that's like xoCRAZYchick22: wow u went out with him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol yeah, we didn't see each other during those 4 days though so i don't really count it xoCRAZYchick22: did use talk nd shit JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: only online there would be a rare occasion on the phone xoCRAZYchick22: hmm xoCRAZYchick22: he enver told me this JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: haven't seen him since before the summer xoCRAZYchick22: he told me tho that u were gunna give him a bj a coupel days before he wnet out with my otehr friend JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ron stopped bringing him over since me and jack got into a physical fight and i wound up passing out lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol yeah xoCRAZYchick22: what happened lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i was in a bad mood and i told him not to touch me and he kept like hitting me and i kept warning him but he didn't listen so i slapped him in the face and he still wouldn't leave me alone so i knocked him on his ass, stradled on top of him and started like hitting him more and he got me in 1 of those submission wrestling moves and i wound up passing out and jack went on the exercise bike and ron pushed jack off it and jack wound up crushing his nuts on the way down JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ryan and pj were there too, ryan thought it was funny and pj was like "are you okay" lol xoCRAZYchick22: haha xoCRAZYchick22: yeha tonite i slapped jack across the face nd we kept hitting back nd forth then he fucking punches me in the nose . . now its all swolen nd hurts like a bitch lol xoCRAZYchick22: hes very violent JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: me and jack don't get along much i kicked him in the nuts once JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: eww yo i would've knocked his fucking teeth in lol xoCRAZYchick22: yeha i know i smacked him in the face rele hard . . idk he gets very ruff lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yeah he does xoCRAZYchick22: so how old are you JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: he'll talk so much shit online and when you see him in person he'll act all nice and try to be all cuddly with you JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: 17 xoCRAZYchick22: yeah xoCRAZYchick22: is it true that u have sex with ronnie liek all the time JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol yeah xoCRAZYchick22: did u get pregnant or something JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: not yet lol but i thought i was like 3 times already xoCRAZYchick22: pam . . just remeber ur onli 17 nd ur not readi for the repsonsibility yet . . so just be careful dn shit JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: it's messed up though ron has changed alot, like me and him used to hang out all the time, and now it's just hook ups he plans to spend the whole day with me but he comes up with some reason to leave or bring me home after we hook up JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i know but it's been what 8 months haven't gotten pregnant yet xoCRAZYchick22: hmm xoCRAZYchick22: when was the last time uve hooked up with him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: sunday xoCRAZYchick22: hm xoCRAZYchick22: do use guys have sex like everytime JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: unless if i have my period but i just give him a bj instead JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: or unless if we're with other people xoCRAZYchick22: pam im telling u . . that one day somethings gunna go wrong nd then ur gunna fucking hate urself for not stopping in the beginnijng JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yeah i know xoCRAZYchick22: nd plus . . are u positive that rons not just using u for a piece of ass JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: that's what i'm confused about he tells me he loves me and that he isn't, jack says that he is, bobby says that ron tells him all the time that he loves me xoCRAZYchick22: hm idk xoCRAZYchick22: but if he leaves after he fucks u . . then thast fucking dick JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yeah xoCRAZYchick22: nd u should feel rele low nd horrible about urself if thats what happens JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i do xoCRAZYchick22: then why do u do it JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: but i'm used to feeling like shit all the time JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i don't know guess i'm still holding onto the old ron xoCRAZYchick22: wow this is weird . . because ive gone through the same shit u have . . i always felt like shit nd i was always unhappy . . nd u know what i did . . i fucking moved on nd never went back . . nd ive been happy since then JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i've tried to move on but never accomplished JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i get attached too easily xoCRAZYchick22: yeah . . i have that problem too xoCRAZYchick22: but i always seem to get hurt in the end JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: same here xoCRAZYchick22: ugh . ./ guys are dicks xoCRAZYchick22: n always will be xoCRAZYchick22: but im fucking shot . . so im gunna go JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: alright goodnight xoCRAZYchick22: goodnitee And the conversation with Ron... JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ur a fuckin dick head i cant believe u got jess drunk n' tried 2 hook up wit her, how low can u really get ron seriously, u dont do dat 2 ur frendz Auto response from RONC495401: I am away from my computer right now. JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ya datz whut i thought u aint gonna say shit cuz u kno ur beat RONC495401: hey i was drunk 2 ok JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: YOU SHOULDN'T BE DRINKING IN THE FIRST PLACE LET ALONE GET HER DRUNK RONC495401: y shouldn't u RONC495401: i JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: BECAUSE YOU SAID YOU QUIT ASSHOLE!!! ANOTHER FUCKING LIE I CAUGHT YOU IN JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: do you have any idea JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: what frankie wants to do to you now RONC495401: what RONC495401: he told me JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i seriously cannot believe you...and you told me you were going to your fucking aunts house RONC495401: y do u care were not going out JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: BUT I STILL FUCKING HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU AND WE'RE STILL FRIENDS AND FRIENDS DO HANG OUT YOU KNOW JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: do you know how much dat pissez me off everytime u say u dont lie 2 me nemore n' u fuckin still do RONC495401: don't wannt talk to u ever again RONC495401: ok JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING RONC495401: yea u did i saw the convo in your diary JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: WHAT CONVO RONC495401: with u and mat JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: saying? RONC495401: calling me name u didn't care about me and shit I tried to tell Ron that I didn't mean any of the shit I said in that one conversation but he signed off before I could tell him...I know what I said was fucked up and I'm really sorry. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know who to trust or who to believe. I don't even know who loves and cares about me anymore. I mean Matt tells me all the time that he loves me and that we're going to get back together soon...yeah right...I highly doubt that. And Ron claims that he loves me but he doesn't show it like he should...whenever we hook up he comes up with some reason to leave or take me home. Like how dick is that? Jimmy G is moving away...so he wants me to send the bracelets back as a memory of me...how like stupid is that? If anyone out there loves and cares about me...please tell me...and never let me go.