I got in a huge fight with Matt last night...here's that conversation... JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: so who was the girl u were kissing last night magic hexa child: jessica householder magic hexa child: why JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: cuz meg n' sarah saw JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: so y were u kissin her magic hexa child: idk magic hexa child: why is it anyones problem JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: mine JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: peace magic hexa child: wait magic hexa child: why is it your problem magic hexa child: were not going out JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: idc datz fucked up, ur like alwayz all over me n' tellin me dat u love me n' den u kiss sum otha gurl JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: they tell me these things cause they dont want to see me getting hurt cause their true friends like that...and you know what im glad they told me cuz then i would have just kept getting used if i didn't find out magic hexa child: getting used, were not even going out, and you said youll never go back out with me so why cant i just go out and have fun magic hexa child: and you have no right to be mad at me cause you fucked corey the other day and i bet you still have the hickeys on your neck JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: WHY DO YOU THINK I ASKED IF YOU IF WE WERE GONNA GET BACK TOGETHER SOON...HMM CUS I WANTED TO GET BACK TOGETHER...BUT HAVE YOU HEARD ME SAY I LOVE YOU LATELY I HAVENT SAID IT SINCE THEY DAY WE BROKE UP...AND IM NOT THE ONE WHO'S ALL OVER YOU...CUZ I DONT MAKE THE FIRST MOVE AND YOU SAID IT YOURSELF THAT WE WERE GONNA GET BACK TOGETHER SO DON'T EVEN FUCKIN GIVE ME THAT SHIT JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: AND YES GETTING USED...CAUSE YOUR FUCKIN KISSING ME AND SOME OTHER GIRL JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: WHY DO YOU THINK I STILL KISS YOU JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: HOPING THAT YOU'LL COME BACK TO ME JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: BUT OBVIOUSLY THAT HASNT HAPPENED magic hexa child: ....and at the rate your going, it wont ever hapen again JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: WELL APPARENTLY YOU MEAN SOMETHING TO ME IN ORDER TO FUCKIN BUG THE FUCK OUT ABOUT THIS magic hexa child: Anyways...me and Alicia were staring at this kid all day in Gym on Thursday...he's a Sophomore that's supposed to be a Junior...and ohhh man he's sooooooo bangin! Last night Alicia told me her friend Shannon is gonna hook me up with him on Monday...OH DEAR! lol. magic hexa child: fucking idiot, i read your journal every fucking day magic hexa child signed off at 11:57:12 PM. JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!!!!! JUST CUZ SHE SAID SHEZ GONNA HOOK ME UP WITH HIM DOEZNT MEAN FUCKIN SHIT YOU ASSHOLE, I NEVER SAID IT IN THERE I WAS GONNA GO OUT WITH HIM NOR DOEZ IT SAY HE WILL GO OUT WITH ME I DONT EEVEN FUCKIN KNO HIS NAME!!!! I JUST WANT TO FUCKIN MEET THE DAMN KID SO DONT EVEN FUCKIN GO THERE JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: AND BLOCKING ME AINT WORKING SoiaKrw89: it will now SoiaKrw89 signed off at 11:59:36 PM. JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ya no fuckin shit sherlock...CUZ I REALIZED DAT U WERENT GONNA FUCKIN ASK ME OUT insane pyro spaz: fuck off, you have no right to be mad at me since your gonna be going out with this kid insane pyro spaz signed off at 11:58:13 PM. magic hexa child signed on at 11:59:57 PM. JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: only pussiez block...n' obviously u never gave a fuckin shit bout me JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: peace magic hexa child: how the fuck did you manage to be unblocked? i didnt do shit about unblocking you JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: peace magic hexa child signed off at 12:01:43 AM. And Megan was over Sarah's house and she tried talking to Matt also...here's her conversation with him... sweetrose9213: who were the skanks you were with yesterday? sweetrose9213: this is megan insane pyro spaz: why? sweetrose9213: idk sweetrose9213: curious insane pyro spaz: theyre not skanks sweetrose9213: sure there not insane pyro spaz: why the fuck is everyone got a fucking problem tonite insane pyro spaz: now im really regretting me not pulling the fucking trigger sweetrose9213: i dont have a problem im just nosey sweetrose9213: ... sweetrose9213: im not being mean insane pyro spaz: im about to go out and kill someone sweetrose9213: why insane pyro spaz: cause my life sucks and i wanna die sweetrose9213: u need to chill out sweetrose9213: y does ur life suck so bad insane pyro spaz: ill kill as many people as i can so that i get sentenced to death sweetrose9213: they wont do that insane pyro spaz: cause pams flipping out on me now cause of this sweetrose9213: o0o0o thats so horrible ... no reason to killyourself insane pyro spaz: yes they will, theyll put me in juve then theyll put me in jail, on death row sweetrose9213: naaa insane pyro spaz: why did you tell her though sweetrose9213: u wont go to jail just juvie cus ur 15 insane pyro spaz: it happened to my uncle .... idk how parole got him out of death row but he managed to change insane pyro spaz: no, juve then jail, depending on what you do sweetrose9213: why dioes ur life3 suck sweetrose9213: they cant put u in jail sweetrose9213: ur not 17 insane pyro spaz: cause i hate how pam thinks that if i kiss another girl its her problem, were not going out insane pyro spaz: why did you tell pam sweetrose9213: because she is nosey too n i dont like girls sweetrose9213: u get mad at her when she fucks ppl sweetrose9213: dont even say u dont insane pyro spaz: well why did you have to go and make my day worse than it really is insane pyro spaz: but i didnt fuck her sweetrose9213: i didnt make ur day nething that was alllll u ... n its night time honey' sweetrose9213: ,......, insane pyro spaz: im gonna go to bed andi hope i never wake up sweetrose9213: u mm thats so stupid stop being reatarded sweetrose9213: tthats no reason to hope u die sweetrose9213: so what pam bugged out on u its not the end of the world n ullmake up no big yhing sweetrose9213: n besides if u dont stop blowing things out of porportion then ur just going to make everything 10 times harfer in your life sweetrose9213: n if u wouldnt of made up some excuses not to be with pam n u reeally loved her then u would be with her riete now sweetrose9213: if u can be with other girls thenu can be wit pam cus none of the girls ive seen u woth hasve measured up to pam sweetrose9213: answrr me insane pyro spaz: ok sweetrose9213: ok what insane pyro spaz: you told me to answer you sweetrose9213: i want morte of a response sweetrose9213: ...... sweetrose9213: more sweetrose9213: react dont sit there insane pyro spaz: i am reacting, im rocking in my chair about to fall asleep sweetrose9213: lol sweetrose9213: did u read the whole thing insane pyro spaz: yes sweetrose9213: cus the matt i know would of had a bigger response sweetrose9213: n if ur just falling asleep then u really dont care so u should just stop while ur ahead with pam insane pyro spaz: well the matt you know is rocking in his chair, 9/10 of the way asleep and very pissed insane pyro spaz: i am, im never gonna do anything with her again insane pyro spaz: im cutting it all off right this instant sweetrose9213: wait do u care about her or no insane pyro spaz: i care but not right now because shes yelling at me insane pyro spaz: im goin to bed, goodnite sweetrose9213: shes ye;;ing cus she cares sweetrose9213: n if u do care then dont cut it off sweetrose9213: n live up to your words insane pyro spaz: im goin to live up to it, im cutting it off right now, im not gonna do anything with her sweetrose9213: but u just said u cared about her so ur not insane pyro spaz: and shes pissed about me kissing her -->>Anyways...me and Alicia were staring at this kid all day in Gym on Thursday...he's a Sophomore that's supposed to be a Junior...and ohhh man he's sooooooo bangin! Last night Alicia told me her friend Shannon is gonna hook me up with him on Monday...OH DEAR! lol. sweetrose9213: she just does it to make u jealous n her actions have nothing to do with u living up to ur mouth insane pyro spaz: no, i aint getting jealous, this is what im gonna do insane pyro spaz: im gonna block her and never unblock her again sweetrose9213: ur just angry sweetrose9213: stop insane pyro spaz: im not angry, im severely pissed insane pyro spaz: and i wont forgive her sweetrose9213: stop sweetrose9213: dont be korney sweetrose9213: stop running from ur problems sweetrose9213: it just sets u back 2 feet sweetrose9213: stop blocking her sweetrose9213: if u care u wouldnt b blocking her insane pyro spaz: no i wont stop blocking her insane pyro spaz is away at 12:02:35 AM. sweetrose9213: u play too many mind games Auto response from insane pyro spaz: I am away from my computer right now. sweetrose9213: stop acting like a kid Well anyways...I tried to explain to Matt that he means more than anything in the world to me and not that stupid fucking sophomore. Who cares? I don't know the boy...don't know his name...don't know what he's like. I just think he's really hot that's all. But I do know Matt, and I love him with all my heart. But why he doesn't understand that is what I don't get. Yeah sure I know I said I would never go back to him after him threatening to hit my friend...but come on I was pissed off...I always say things that I don't mean when I'm pissed...everyone does. There's nothing out there that could possibly keep me away from him no matter how angry I am with him. All I ever wanted was him. I miss how it used to be so perfect in the beginning...but that's how it always is in every relationship...it's perfect in the beginning and it gets worse as time goes on. I never really thought that would happen between me and Matt. But it did. I wish things would just go back to how it used to be with him. Before anyone got inbetween us. I never wanted to lose him...I never wanted to fuck things up for us...but now I'm too late. I'm sorry for everything that I have done and said...I just want my baby boy back :'(