(10:10pm) Wow alot has happened since I last wrote in this thing, well here it goes... January 10th... I chilled at Corey's... then I went home and Ron and the rest of the Brick crew called me up saying they're on their way over... the car was packed... Ron in the driver's seat, Frankie in the passenger seat, Jack - Ryan - and some kid Mike were in the back... so I had to sit on Frankie's lap. We drove to Matt's, showed him where he lived, they took me home... they went back to Matt's and egged his house... Frankie was waiting for Matt to come outside so he can beat the shit out of him but he didn't come out so they left and called me to tell me what happened. Around 11pm that night the cops came to my house... cause Matt's mom thought it was me that egged the house... of course cause she hates me so much... but anyways... Matt's mom gave the cop the conversations of me threatening to kill Marjorie and Chelsea... so my mom bugged the fuck out on me. January 11th... I go to school... I get called down to security beginning of 2nd period... Mr. Vescovi and Mrs. Madden and the security dude had a talk with me about me threatening to kill Marjorie and Chelsea, my suicidal problems, my anger and depression... and since I thought it was all Matt's fault ratting me out when it was really his mom... I wound up telling Mr. Vescovi about Matt holding a knife to me about his suicidal problems and how he threatened to kill Ron and me, etc. So security went to my 2nd period class and got my books and shit brought them down to Mr. Vescovi's office... they searched my bookbag, my locker, and they even searched me myself to see if I had that knife on me (which I didn't.) He called my mom at work and told her to come in... and when he told her about what Matt has done my mom got all pissed and upset... so he told my mom to take me home for the rest of the day and get evaluated at a fucking hospital. I go home... Corey stayed home from school so he was trying to get me to come over but I didn't go... Ron came over after he got back from school so I chilled with him out front in his car for a half hour and Marjorie kept walking by and we were exchanging dirty looks lol. Ron had to leave. Then my mom takes me to Paul Kimball Hospital so I can get evaluated... they took blood from me (my first time)... all you see is me get really light headed and then I just fall back and fainted. I asked my mom if she could take me to McDonald's on the way home and she tells me that I'm not going home that their taking me to a mental institution and I had to stay at the hospital over night. So I started crying histerically and then finally fell asleep. January 12th... They woke me up at 7am in the morning... they put me on one of those wheely hospital bed stretcher things, strapped me in, put me in an ambulance and drove me all the way up to Belle Mead which is near Princeton to Carrier Clinic (a mental institution)... and I refused to talk or look at my mom I was so pissed off. I stayed there for like 6 days... it was great the whole time I was there made alot of new friends. I miss them all so much. I helped Vernon pierce his ear, he makes this cool farting sound on the tile floor lol don't ask. A sophomore in our school was there too... he wound up punching one of the staff members and we got sent to our rooms and on the loud speakers all you hear is "code 9 adolescent unit code 9 adolescent unit" lol... and like all these security guards come running in and they restrain him and put him in like a padded room and they were supposed to give him a shot in the ass but they gave it to him in the leg... so he was limping really bad the next morning haha! And one night us girls were watching a movie... me and my room mate Kiki were sitting on the couch and her and this girl Liz don't get along at all... they were screaming at each other back and forth (and remember I'm sitting next to Kiki)... Liz stands up and screams "come on bitch get up say that to my face go on fuckin hit me" and Liz comes running over and leaps on top of Kiki and starts pounding her in the face... I fuckin booked my ass off that couch lmao! It took 4 staff members to get Liz off of Kiki... that shit was crazy lol. I thought I was gonna kill Kiki though cause she went up to Marcus and told him that I liked him, I turned beat red lol. Christina gave me the nickname "milk girl" cause all I was drinking was milk lol... and Czaray gave me the nickname "fourteen" cause I look like I'm 14 years old lol. Oh man those were some fun times though... haha running down the hallway in our socks and breaking ass was fucking awesome! And throwing pencils at each other lol. We were so immature. Anyways... I got discharged on the 18th... so that's when all my friends and family were calling me up saying how much they missed me this and that. (Oh yeah and they put me on medication too... Prozac)... FUN! As I was saying... Megan and Jen come to my house and they both bear hugged me at the same time I couldn't breathe lol. Megan was telling me how she was crying thinking I was never gonna come home lol. Matt also had to go to a mental institution but he went to the one in Monmouth... the one I was originally supposed to go to but they didn't have anymore beds for the girls lol. That would've been funny if they sent us to the same one since we were supposed to be separated from each other for a while lol. I came back to school on the 19th... everyone was asking me what the fuck happened lol. Me and Ron were going back out and now we're broken up again... and he's not even speaking to me anymore... good... that fucking douche bag used me for ass I could fucking care less. ROTT IN HELL! And of course Marjorie was still talking madd fucking shit... we were supposed to fight this past Monday but she fucking pussied out and Stefano was yelling out to her calling her a pussy and I was like "whose a hoe Marjorie don't be that person!" lol... and on the way home she was walking in front of us and me and Brittany were shouting so much shit to Marjorie I was like "cause she's scurred fuckin chicken!" and I started squawking like a chicken and I did that the next day too lmao! She hasn't been online since lol fucking pussy ass cunt rag lol. Me and Chelsea are cool now and friends... gonna chill with her tomorrow and help her find her dog that escaped lol. Me and Matt are cool again too. Yesterday... Me, Megan, and Sarah stayed after school with Nicole and Ashlyn... then me, Megan and Sarah went to my house and then we went to Corey's house... they were being pains in the ass so Corey wound up throwing Megan and Sarah out of the house... and they kept looking through the door window at us so he got pieces of paper from the printer and taped it all on the window lmao! And umm yeah well I'm sure you all know what happened from there no need to get into details with that lol. Today... I went to see my psychiatrist after school... that didn't go so well... she obviously didn't get that me saying "I don't wanna fucking talk about it" really means that I didn't wanna talk about it... so I gave her an attitude and wouldn't stop cursing and my mom's like "watch your mouth"... and the psychiatrist was like "well I can't perscribe you your medication if you are not gonna talk to me about this" and I'm like "fine then fuck the medication I'm not fucking coming back here" lmao! Then my mom took me to McDonald's and that's when I saw my buddy Mike... haha! Then Corey was begging me to come over tonight which I didn't cause I really wasn't in the mood to hang out with anybody. I was supposed to go to South high tonight to see a bunch of bands play and shit... and Chris is probably gonna bug out on me for not going lol... sorry! Some kid has been stalking me for the past like 7 months... he talks to me online... he refuses to tell me who he is unless if I flash him on cam or give him my phone number... I gave him my number in the summer time and he wound up posting it on the internet on some porn site and I had people calling me from fucking Cali... then I gave it to him again the other day and he decided that he wasn't gonna call anymore... but there is no way in fucking hell I'm gonna flash that bastard just to know who the fuck he is... I'm not that desperate to know! FUCK THAT! Wow I didn't know I was missed that much lol... part of a convo with Matt tonight... JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: holler!!! Magic Hexa Child: were you in school today JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yes sirrr Magic Hexa Child: what fuckiong time do you get into lunch JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: the same time as usual lol Magic Hexa Child: later than usual Magic Hexa Child: i wait 20 minutes than i go outside I AM ACTUALLY SINGLE FOR ONCE PEOPLE'S AREN'T YOU PROUD OF ME!!! Well I'm not proud... I hate being single... it's so lonely and depressing. Oh yeah... my brother's fiance's mother died last week... we were really close to her... I miss her... and I feel so bad cause I was like always so disrespectful to her... I emailed my brother's fiance showing her sympathy and my brother told me that she was crying histerically when she read my email and then she wrote back to me and I started crying... what the fuck is up with everybody fucking dieing in my life!?! Well umm I guess that's all that is new so far... I wanna thank all my friends for always being there for me whenever I needed them... I love you all so much!!! Mwwwah!