Wow so much shit has been going on it's not even funny. In the previous entry I didn't put how Matt came over and how he kissed me. Well a couple days later I went over Mike's. I was only half way into telling him and he was already shaking and hanging off his bed upside down trying to calm down. And when I told him that Matt kissed me he flipped the fuck out. I started crying histerically. He was throwing shit across the room breaking stuff. Screaming at me saying "I fuckin told you to stay away from him I told you this was gonna happen you never fuckin listen to me you don't trust me" etc. He was punching things, lifting his dresser up and slamming it back down. Then he pulled out his knife and I thought he was gonna stab me but he didn't. And I kept looking at the knife and he was liek "why are you looking at it" and I didn't say anything and he was like "you wanna cut yourself again don't you" and I looked away. And he was like "what's that gonna solve, nothing" and he placed it to his wrist and was like "is this how you do it" and I was like "I can't believe you would ask me that" and I looked away crying. Then he kept asking me why I didn't listen to him and how much I really love him. Then he goes downstairs and tells his dad and starts crying on his dad's shoulder. His dad got all disappointed in me and stormed out of the house and left on his motorcycle. He comes back upstairs and starts flipping out again. He goes downstairs and IM's Matt. Matt denies it saying that I'm only saying that shit to get him in trouble. Which was NOT true. So Mike makes me go on the computer and talk to Matt. When I get on the computer he starts admitting that he kissed me. Then me and Matt were argueing. Mike's friend Brian IM's and kept saying "fuck her" and I was like "Hi Brian... I'm sitting right here" and he was like "oh shit" lol. Anyways, after that we go back upstairs and I started crying again while we were talking about everything. And he was like "I want to break up with you but I don't. I don't know what to do anymore, you promised you never hurt me." Then he gets a phone call that his dad got in a motorcycle accident. He's okay though. So Mike took me home and we talked some more online. Steve talked him out of breaking up with me, thank God. Thanks Steve you're the best! Me and Mike's dad had a talk about everything too. Next day, Mike fell to his knees crying about the night before and he also got hit by a car... he was spitting up blood for like 10 minutes. His friends had to carry him back to school and to his class. Yesterday he went to the doctors and the hospital and he has to have a cat scan done. The doctors said that from getting hit by the car the other day, his body is eating away his blood vessels in his brain. And that he should've been dead by now. So he might have to get brain surgery or something. Don't worry Mike, I'm always here for you babe. I love you soooo much!!!