I would totally love to do something evil to myself right now ; like running into a wall or something along those lines. I'm an idiot. And for a first, I'm not saying that proudly. I should go jump off a cliff. A very high one. (If there was one within walking distance.) I'm a really fucking big idiot. My head is taking over my heart. And it getting all these silly ideas about how Ryan doesn't even like me. By the time my damn head is done, he probably won't like me cos I'm so fucking fucked up. I really don't like myself today. To the fucking highest extreme. Stupid Fucking Head. I Should Murder You. You'll make my heart weep. I've finally found someone worth it. I can't fuck this up. Dammit.