Well, I feel like I can do nothing right these days. I feel like shit. I feel lonely. Even with so many people around me, and many different friends, I can't help it, I'm automatically lonely. And what really pisses me off, is Jeremy, my brother doesn't seem like he wants to talk to me on the phone anymore. Yeah, great, the relationship between brother and sister is slowly fading. And then he goes "I want to talk to her but I don't have that much too say." That's bullshit. He can talk to Mum for an hour but to his god damn sister who might just have something remotely interesting, he doesn't give a shit. Yeah, so I'm pissed at my brother for now never making time to talk to me, only talking to mum. And then, my friends don't make life any easier. Everybody involved with Pippin leaves me out. Like really, we had that college fair thing today and we got back & we all ate C lunch. So, Amelia and Isabel obviously forgot about me, you know, like usual. And they sat with all the play people. And Brianne & Timmy were with them, I bet they were having a fucking ball without me. Whatever. I don't fucking need them, I guess. And then today, this guy pretty much told me that he's in love with me and he doesn't mind cheating on his girlfriend because of it. He thinks his girlfriend is cheating on him and he doesn't even know why he's dating her. What a dumbass. Okay. I don't know anymore! I'm so lost. So confused about who I like. Mr. Liberal I still like, I can't help it. Maybe if he'd stop saying "hi" to me every time we saw each other, it'd help a bit... And then well, Alessio...I don't have a chance with him. It's obvious. Oh well. And then it all comes down to Luis. The distance is really starting to piss me off. And well, I have really strong feelings for him. But I haven't seen him since November!! It's been five months. It's insane. Sometimes I wish that I had never met him and that I never made a Facebook so I could find him. Perhaps my life would be a lot less complicated. Perhaps I'd be with the guy that I previously mentioned who is practically in love with me. Who knows? I won't say that I regret becoming close with Luis... But it's just really getting to me. I don't know what to do at all. I just need a really good cry. He's right, I am too fucking emotional. Oh, and my astronomy test was a fucking piece of shit. It's an entertaining and interesting class, but I'm starting to dislike it. Even with some great people in there: Melissa, Punzi, Brandi, and Ari. I need a fucking mental health day. Maybe Thursday. :)