I've been back in school for two days now, and my mood has fastly decreased from happy to horrible in this new year. It's not that I'm complaining, because I hate complaining but really, I was sooo optimistic about 2007 going to be excellent and so far it's really not going like such. I can't sleep at night anymore: my room makes me sick and when I sleep in my brother's room [cos he's back in Texas], it's too bright. What depresses me right now, is that my friends, they plan all these big, fun events, and I'm not even invited. They all had a big party on New Years' Eve, yes, they probably knew I had to work, but an invitation would have been very nice. And then today they were all going to the Fireside to see people play. And I didn't get invited until lunch today. I just think it's fucking bullshit that I don't get invited places. Maybe I'm really not close friends with these people. Maybe I just exist so they can use me, I really don't know. && it finally hit me today that Luis broke up with me. And I know it shouldn't hurt. But really, I don't understand it. =/ I miss him. Like trillions of things remind me of him now just because we talked about them. The Fray. Spider Man 2. The Fox and the Hound 2. College Football. Virginia Tech. Even the Backstreet Boys. I just don't know anymore what's been going on inside my mind. I feel as though there is a fog covering my eyes and I can't see through the haze cos it's always there. =/ I don't know, but my mind is driving me nuts. I must get some sleep, perhaps that is what I need.