Well, I did actually talk to Luis, again. Not for very long. And you know what, I don't feel anything along the lines of "love" or "like" in that special way. I just view him as a friend. It's really weird. Jon still isn't speaking to me. He read my apology letter the day after. And then he told me he "wasn't in the mood". So that ended the 2nd attempt. On Thursday we passed in the hall ways, and he like glanced at me and mumbled "hi Jamie" So, when I went online that night, I couldn't help but talk to him, so I asked him if he was still mad at me, and he said "I don't know." And then on Friday we passed again in the hall, he didn't even look at me, or acknowledge that I had just passed him. That really made me sad. I've been out of it all week. I can't get my mind off it. I know I should. I'm definitely not worthy of his friendship. I didn't tell many people that Jon and I aren't on good terms. Only Lauren, Brianne, Julie, Ari, and Justin. And Lindy and Ruby both know something, but not the whole story. I can't make it the rest of this school year without his friendship. I just wish he knew that. I had a class with him first semester, by the time September 8th had come by, I was hooked. There was just something awesome about him. I like how he wanted all his letters completely perfect. He's just so driven to be all that he can be. Honestly, he's a great person, and going this long without talking to him, is definitely taking a toll [on my schoolwork.] Oh well, can't dwell in the past. Nothing gets accomplished that way. & you can't move on with your life. And that's what I need to do. I have to go to work in less than two hours. There's a party of 100, so I have to work the day shift, and then hopefully take a bit of a break, get some energy drinks, and then be back on my feet at 5:30 for the night shift. Not good. Have a good day folks.