i've decided, if you're going to push me away you can have it your way, and i'll leave. but i swear to god, i won't come back. mm. i'm just sick of all the fake people that live here. it annoys me. if they're not doing drugs, they're drinking. if they're not drinking, they're being posers. if they're not being posers, they dont have a brain at all. it makes me angry that i have to put up with this shit all the time. i'm growing farther apart from the kids i thought were my friends. and i'd just made new friends. i'm still holding on to the real ones but it's difficult. there are some making some bad decisions but they say if i can't accept them for who they are i'm not a good friend. what about trying to help them see what they're doing wrong? i'm not trying to control them, really. i just wish they wouldn't be stupid and throw away their lives. i can't just sit back and watch like all my other friends can. i can't just say "oh do what you want" because i fucking care about them! i'm sorry, is that a crime? god. and nick still hates me. me and jake still dont talk much. i'm still leaving on may 31. school is still stressfull. i'm still happy.