saturday, the show, everything was amazing. i could go into detail about our kisses and conversations but it's boring lovey-dovey shit that i've already repeated too many times. but then after everything, just like normal, we stopped talking. then i asked him out. big mistake. his final answer was, "i don't know." which broke me up a bit, but i ignored the feeling and have been going on with life. i mean maybe he thinks i'll break up with him again and that i'll hurt him, when i had no intention of that but i guess it's possible. i'm sick of constantly talking thinking and living around him. it's like i live FOR him, when i should be living for me. so i'm going to try. we had a juno party last night at cortney's house. it was amazing and fun. before the movie, before erica got there, we went outside and jumped on the tramp and .. swinged? swung? swang? what's the correct past tense of that verb? i'm confused. anyway, then we went inside and started the movie. about ten or twenty minutes into it, erica showed up. we finished the movie and then hung out on cort's bed for a while. then we went back outside and swung [?] some more in her verious types of swings. it was amazing. i love those kids i call my best friends. anyway, i think i'm going to go shower so i can go get my hair cut. i'm dying to.