i'm sick of seeing my friends fuck up their lives. jessie's gone crazy. chandler's not nearly as cool anymore. whitney's just boring. is it really that i only have cortney and colty to count on anymore? why do people NEED to use marijuana or get drunk? why can't anyone just live with what they're born with and try to make the best of it instead of take the shitty way of escaping things for a short amount of time. in the long run, it won't help you. in the short run it won't help you. fuck, i'm sick of it. i have almost no respect for the girl i once called my best friend. and i don't miss her, not anymore. not how she is now. the people who use it all the time have no personalities. they're blank and emotionless, but everyone calls it "chill". oh, he's not personality-less, he's just chill. what the fuck. i was talking to chandler the other day, and something came up where i was teasing her and i said, "at least i don't get drunk and make out with a bunch of guys [she's gay] in one night." and you know how she responded? "at least i have fun with my life." yeah, fuck that. i love my life. that's so fucked up that she honestly thinks that's the way to have fun with life. god damn. i mean, if you like it so much, why the hell can't anyone give it up and use it when they're mature enough? when they're fully developed? it's fucking them over so bad. no one will think anything of them eventually. but at least they'll be drunk/high, right? god. /endrant.