just got home from the logan high football game. i hate football, but i enjoy going to the games. especially ones that aren't at my school. even if my school isn't playing. for example, at the logan games i get to see friends i haven't seen in a long time and never get to; like nick thamphya and katherine monday. i was way tight with them when we were little but then i moved and we didn't talk much for like 8 or 9 years. it's good to hang out with him some. and then there's roo, who i pretty much shadowed most of the time. i don't think he minded much and maybe he had fun but i felt kind of stupid. i mean, i'm crushing hardcore on this boy and then he invites me to just follow him places and i do and i'm just reminded of the time we hung out at the sky view game and this one girl was with him and he was like "sorry about her, she just kinda follows me everywhere." i don't want him to have been saying that about me D; good news: he put his arm around me when i was shaking because i was so cold and then like his hand was there and he opened it like he wanted my hand? if that makes sense? so i kinda held his hand... one of his friends was like, "give her your jacket! come on!" i don't know if it looked like we were 'together' or what; but roo just laughed and didn't deny that we were anything so i don't know what that means. i'm so confused. he's just so damn cute... katie seems to think that from everything i've told her, he feels the same about me that i do about him. i disagree, but i don't know why. it's like this gut feeling, and maybe that's why i dont think he does. and with my luck that'll probably be how it is. and that's okay, i guess, i just like being his friend. i just feel like i'm making this huge deal out of him being a good friend and a nice person. but what if there is something more...? ugh, i thought i was done with all of this.