my life is completely and utterly boring. i honestly don't have much to write about these days. maybe that's because either i have nothing to write about or things so emotionally draining that i can't be bothered. i went on a saturday adventure with cortney today. it was great, i've missed her. hopefully we can start hanging out a lot more now since she's not in school anymore. i really need to not be so attached to colty. i need to let him do his own thing more often, i just love to be such a big part of his life and i love that he's such a big part of mine. but i need to be more realistic. i also need to be less jealous. i'll try to work on it. we're going to warped tour, hopefully. maybe with cort, tess, and ru. we'll see. i'm mostly just excited to be with colty, but that might be because of how fun it was when we went to the mury show, just us two. and because i haven't seen him in a week. i love the grown-up feeling that comes with the ability to legally drive by myself. i mean, it's still quite restricted and i can't have anyone in the car with me that's not 1) an immediate family member or 2) a person 21 or older. oh well, at least i can get places by myself. i bought big fish for $7 yesterday at smiths; that was exciting. and my sister got a cat! his name is luxio. he's adorable. i enjoy him very much. colty wants to start a little ska band project with me, ru, jake, and maybe gavin. (we haven't mentioned it to gavin; i'm not even sure we've mentioned it to jake.) i'm just not sure i'm a good enough guitarist (can i even call myself that?) to play in a band. but colty assures me and reassures me that playing with other people definitely helps you get better, so if it ever happens, i hope that's the case. ugh. honestly i'm just excited for colty to get home. he's been in new york for the past week. i mean, i haven't been missing him terribly and even on the days i don't do anything, i'm perfectly content. he's just my very bestest friend and i very much enjoy his company. a lot. but i've definitely missed tess and cort, which is my fault and not his, but still. my parents want me to go to a concert in the park with them tonight, but it's classical and somedays i really dig classical and somedays i'm just not feeling it. like today. i mean, it'd be okay if i was with friends as well or if i was listening to it on a radio or something while doing something else... but meh. idk. i finished haunted by chuck palahniuk. it's such a crazy book, i very much liked it. now i'm on to everything is illuminated by jonathan safran foer. so far, it's hilarious. cortney and i went to borders today and ugh i wish someone would give me a $3000 gift card to that store so i could just buy all the books i want and just read all the time. but oh well. that's what libraries are for, right? still working on being a better person.