so i observed that today was better now that nick is staying out of my life. i still have to make more of an effort than i'd like to to pretend that he's not around but he doesn't make that too difficult. if i see him coming i either go the other way or start talking to someone. but yeah, school was pretty easy. math sucked because we had a sub and she did NOT explain things well at all. but i still got my assignment all done and i think i was right. other than that, school was good. i dunno, i think gavin is mad at me or something. i made a bulletin on myspace to nick saying like fuck you, you may not fully understand but at last you'll stay out of my life. and gavin replied saying fuck you too or something but he was being hella serious. so i'm just kinda avoiding him, not a lot just sort of. i can never tell if he likes me anyway. the chili party was fun. it was pouring rain and getting fairly windy, and not nearly as many people came this year as they normally do, but it's okay. kate jake and i played in the rain for a while and then we went inside and dried off in my room watching comedy videos on youtube. then jake went home and kate and i played guitar hero and had pop corn. on monday dad, kate, teresa and i went to wal mart after dropping off the recycling and i got cute little headbands and hair dye. then when we got home kate dyed my hair a little darker (a mix between "golden cappuccino" and "hazelnut"). i think it looks good. i'm reading a book called "ask alice." it's kind of almost surreal, and you'd think it was a fiction story, like crank or glass or impulse - one of those by ellen hopkins, but it's non fiction. i can pretty much tell its going to be depressing; every time it starts getting better, she cracks. i don't know. i would recommend it to someone.