today was a little slow, and not too fun, but it wasn't bad. i got to bed at a reasonable time but i was still extremely drowsy all morning. and in the shower this morning, i kept just stopping and staring off into space and thinking. i still got everything done on time, though. i'm worried about mckay; i probably shouldn't have done that at the game. he says he's in love with me, and i keep telling him he's not. he knows i just can't get myself to go that far yet. i tried and failed once, i need more time or something. although its been over half a year. oh well. i guess my heart's too stubborn and my head isn't stubborn enough. i went on my last drive for drivers ed today. casey came and got me from school at three in his newly fixed scion. it was my first time driving. we didn't bicker so much, which was cool. he's a cool kid. but i think i did pretty good, and if i just practice a lot i'll do okay on the test next summer. i've done all my immediately important homework, so i have a little time to relax and i might go play DDR in a bit. i haven't decided yet though. on our drive, we stopped at the Foothill Mart and i picked up an Xzude sports water, so if i do want to play DDR i'll have the water for after. if i don't drink it all.