broke up with nick last night, and i'm just hoping he's okay with it. he will probably develop bitter feelings toward me, if he is anything like i am, which he kind of is; i think that's why we got along so well. i just dont believe we were "meant to be;" if we were, some day we'll realize it and come back together. if not, i'll live my life normally. besides, we're freaking 15. like i said, i'm too young for this. anyway, went to church this morning and apologized (i hate the word 'repented,' it sounds so cynical) to god for my sins; however i always feel like it's just not good enough. i hope he forgives me though. anyway, teresa, emily, and i met emily's friend at cafe ibis and had some coffee. teresa (that dear sister of mine) bought me an iced mocha and it was more coffee than i liked but i drank a lot of it. not enough chocolate. i prefer the BK Mocha Joe's. they're very good on a hot day. anyway, so after that we all went back to emily's apartment and sat in her room talking about random shit. after a while i took up her yearbook from last year since she was a senior and i was asking her which people she all knew and we talked about some skanks and some cool people and it was way fun. i love that teresa and i can hang out with each other now and get along. it's way cool. and i can tell her things i never used to even think about telling her. and as sorry as i am for breaking up with nick, i feel so much better. and if you can't make everyone happy, at least make yourself happy, right? emily's rules: do a virgin or stay a virgin. :)