Time: 9:39 PM Hopefully in close to 12 hours, I will be finishing packing up our van and getting on the road to Ames. I only say hopefully because then we have more time to unpack. It all seems so dumb, to pack up everything and then unpack, all in like 48 hours. I bet God is looking down at us and just laughs it up because us humans are just so gosh darn funny in our silly ways. I went to family camp this weekend. Every year, there are less and less of "us". This year it was just me and Caroline. Cindy was supposed to go but her dad got sick or something so her family stayed home. But me and Care had a blast because all the little kids are so cute! Big doll baby (Alex Wagoner) was there and he's so cute and very smart. And Misty Ackland really liked me. She climbed up in my lap last night when we were playing cards and she fell asleep "helping" me hold my cards, very precious. Makes me want kids but not for a long time. Actually, it makes me wish I could "rent a kid" for a couple hours. Then I could return it before the bad stuff happened. I am so worried about moving in and everything. Tuesday is that leadership conference and so far, I know no one going. Very sad. That means I will have to make friends, which won't be that bad unless whole house cabinets come together. That's what I'm gathering may happen with some floors because of the emails I've been getting from the head guy. As far as I know, only two people returning to my floor wanted to be on cabinet, and I don't think the other girl is the kind who would move in early. But I guess we will just see what happens. I have decided on a new philosophy for my life. Last year I probably was not quite living up to my potential but now I am starting off fresh (well, sort of). And I think if I start off with a set goal in mind, then I will be much better off this year. I am going to make better choices this school year concerning important things and I will be more optimistic and content. I think "The Voice Within" by Christina Aguilera is a good song for my new philosophy. I don't know when I downloaded it but I listened to it the other day and it almost made me cry. There was way too much drama last year in my life all the time and if I look within myself and to God for answers this year instead of looking to other things, then I will be much better off. At least that's my thoughts for now. All I know is that things this year are going to be different from last year. I already knew they were going to be and so I'm now taking control and dealing with all of that. Anyways, I better go now and finish packing/start loading the van so that we can leave bright and early in the morning. I so cannot wait (sarcasm). Maybe I will write tomorrow from my new room (yippee!)