I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me You used to captivate me By your resonating light Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone And though your still with me I've been alone all along When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ 7.50 p Today was a good Monday. First one in a long time. Got up in time to shower and eat breakfast without running around like a chicken with its head cut off. I didn't, repeat: DID NOT, sleep in any of my classes today. I actually understood Accounting, woo hoo, first time in weeks, too bad about that test in two days. Got out of work on time, came back and had an OK dinner. Now I'm studying/writing in my journal and listening to Evanescence. I really want to watch a Gilmore Girls episode before I go back to the study thing. I think I may actually do well on my two Wednesday tests (Animal Science 214 and Accounting). The real "test" (he he) will be Chemistry on Thursday. I'll see if my work over break was actually worth it. now that I know what I’m without you can't just leave me breathe into me and make me real bring me to life It's funny because Marissa and Erin got their pictures back. They had one of the me and my 3 future roommates (the "Quad" as I called them, as opposed to the "Deuce" of Megs and Robbie). I swear, I look stoned. No joke. Retard-o girl me in the middle. Oh yeah, and I had crazy curly hair that day too. Everyone else looks cute except for me, the weirdo in the middle. And I just know that next year this lovely picture will be displayed in the apartment. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to take lots of other pictures of all of us when I am NOT STONED. Yes, I will have to work on that. Now I will tell you what I've done for you 50,000 tears I cry Screaming, Deceiving, And bleeding for you And you still won't hear me ....GO AWAY.... Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once) Not tormented daily defeated by you Just when I thought I'd reach the bottom So yeah, I am super space cadet today. Megan actually told me "just go to bed". But you know, she did also say "sponge rob bear smelly" so who really knows what's going on in her head. That's all for now, Megan home! Gilmore Girls time? Maybe . . . :) you know you love me ;)