WHew!! i wrote my rough draft today on child abuse and stuff. here's and exerpt: "Everyone in a community needs to have their eyes “wide-open” to the signs and symptoms of child abuse. Once an adult or friend truly listens to a child, the abuse will stop. Be willing to help and please let us have our eyes and ears open to listen to a cry for help, even if it is silent." *cough* ......grrrrrrrrr "inhaler Please" i need to find that shit. im surprised. after 2 hours of cleaning and moving/turing around shit in my room (and having 500 hundred pounds of dust airborne) i only found one spider suspended in air. i felt like little miss muffett who sat on a tuffet. it came down right by my left thigh and clung to my new green inflateable chair (so grand!). ..which took a full 2 hours to blow up. of course taking breaks here and there because i looked like i was about to die from lack of oxygen.. my room looks tight. im excited. i wasted about 5 minutes of just sitting in it. so altogether i wasted about 4 hours that i thought i needed inorder to do the rest of my homework..but..it's okay..i got everything done *sighs* OHH and i got a guitar stand too...for only 8 bucks. that's cheap to me..i dont know..maybe they usually run that much..but i was expecting for it to be more and then they sold me the chair for 10 since it was the last one......but yeah..now it doesnt look tacky with my guitar standing up ontop of my dirty laundry basket (such an eye-sore) ..OHYEAH...and i got my new comforter with stars and moons..and 2 new charms; one star, and the other (yep you guessed it) a moon. im like all up on that shit. but i fucking hate putting charms together. i screamed more than i have in one month ..turning red in the face "OH My FUCKING..GO- er..panTS!" ..."FUCKING FUCK!" ..eventually chuckling because it sounded so funny..my mom just looked at me like i was ridiculous. Havnt talked to jim in a few days. odd him not calling... UPDATE Numbre Uno: that puking reflex thing is happening again..always happens at this time of night. and you know what really sucks..if i were to really have an orgasm..i would start coughing anyway because i dont have my stupid epinephrine (the stuff that gives you a blood an adrenaline rush..) but wait..maybe sex would help since it gets you all pumped...haha.. just thinking.. hmmm...... Any takers? ..yeah.... UPDATE Numbre Dos: It's 2:14 a.m. and im still sitting here. not surpriseing...listiing to three doors down's 'Here Without You" making me think of jim. god i dont want to think of him. it sux. i took my mom's inhaler..and it's shit becasue it has this chemical that leaves a film on your throat..and you have to use a tube at the end of the mouth peice to catch that chemical. i used a toilet paper role instead. it would have worked if i didnt think "i dont care if the stuff get's on my throat it will work better" ..wrong. im even worse since i cant get that chemical shit out. GRRRRR *puking reflex* if you havnt read the last entries..it just when i take a deep deep breath my stomach muscles flex like im puking as i exhale. yes..it's gross...but ...yeah..alot of things in life are gross. eh... goodnight people -jac