You know..I try to alternate songs on here..because...I know..listening to Hello over an over again will turn me off to it even though I love it. So I went back to powerwebmusic.com to see if Sister by The Nixons was there. It wasn't! HOW??? That's so odd. And I really wanna put it up here. Thats sucks my little pinky toe! Today was SUCH a great day..sunny and warm..I love the winter to pieces..but it's just like DAYUM I wanna drive around, meet guys, camp out by the lake and watch some good ol' fireworks..and maybe a few parties here and there *NO BAD JACKIE!*..what did I just say?... When I went to school to turn in my weeks assignments, who was there signing in but Erika Kirkpatric? (An old ex-bestfriend who turned into a druggie/slut/annoyingbitch, and no that's not talkin shit cause it's the facts.)I thought, "WOW...I wonder why she decided to go into this.." There is MANY reasons I could think of becasue her family has done alot of shit to mine and know alot...but I won't say anything SINCE people know her on this site..so whatever. I dont like her or her Mom..but her sis and Dad are the nicest people...I feel for them.. ANYWAYS. I dont usually not like people that much..but just..UGH..she pisses me off!!! Okay..now that I probably just said something that will come back to me.......well..I really dont care. I just cant fucking wait for summer. THe plans to go to Chile got scratched..but we're going to Baha, Mexico for spring break.. CANT WAIT!! wooooooooooooo. Gotta get some D.P....... I hope Tyler comes over 4th of July... that would be really special but..there's things about him that make me feel like he wouldnt be hanging out with me for the right reasons..and that I would jsut be wasting my time by wanting to be with him..He lives in San Diego..but..I dont know..We'll just have to wait and see. I want someone to hold me and kiss me and tell me he loves me and meant it. I want to have someone that I will love back and truely mean it. I'm begining to feel I'll become one of those chicks who never have someone and become lonely becasue..I have too many expectations set, that I dont even meet. And I'm not an easy chick either. You all know that... I look back and hate that Will and I ended up the way we did. Bestfriends (and alot more) in the shape of love and understanding shattered ....the pieces he swept up, were forgotten and thrown away. He wouldnt help me find them all and put them back together. And becasue I can't put my anger aside, I threw my pieces away and have to much pride to build a new life. "He is responsible." .."He has to show me that he cares." .."He ruined it. He will have to show me he's sorry." And I can't let go of that pride. But a big part of me says that's a good thing..becasue I dont want to fall and break my face again. Why the face? Becasue he took my heart away. And I wont let him have it back if I can help it. But is that what I really want? Note: I'm not crying. When I got to a real intese part of HELLO, my eyes started watering..almost like when you yawn..so that's why I put that. I havnt cried over Will in A few weeks. And that's a while..since..my eyes almost looked like that pic in my background with the girl crying black tears. Dont worry. I'm fine. I hope. Note 2: I feel compeled to tell everyone to Visit Sarithequeendork's diary and comment and talk to her becasue she's a fun, likable chick ..and feels sad that she doesnt get much feed back there..and because..i said so! omgosh..i spelt because right without making a typo. okay..off to sitting here waiting. Yesterday, I was playing with new wooden matches and wanted it to burn till it went out..and decided to see if my pants would catch on fire. they didnt "ohh look mom! my pants are fire proof!" it made a little whole near the crotch. This sux. my brandnew pants..but..it's hardly noticlable..and they are Everlast..gym pants..so whatever..yeah. ......... and we cant forget ximbrokenx ..you all visit her and be a pal. YUMMY.........salami .... omg..wait..that did NOT sound right.. i meant...i like salami...LMAO.. just whatever dayumit! im tired.