Listening to: modest mouse - trailer trash
Feeling: reminiscent
wooooooooooooosh....
I went to church this morning with Donnie and Shawn. Not my church.. but the church that Will goes to. I have gone there quite a bit. Thoughts rushed through my mind as I tried to sleep last night..tossing and turning. Finally I just..gave up my burden.
I've had two dreams about crazy driving and something/one falling off a cliff. The pastor said something about falling off cliffs..(a metaphor)
I was in the same row as Will... across the room and I was fine. After the service his dad came up to me outside and we chatted for a little while. Will stood behind me and ..just.. acted like I wasnt there as always.. and yes..I did the same to him.
I know that if he has ANYthing to say to me its an apology. ...........gr... i cant think about this anymore..
I'm most likely gonna start going to that church also.. so something's gotta give. I can't live like this. Today I just felt like calling him and asking whatever happened to us. But I know that answer and dont need to be searching for it where I absolutely know I wont find it. I will never find it from him.
update: 1
Listening to: Purple Rain -leanne rimes and prince.
Feeling: i dont know..0_0
i love this song! "i neva wanted to be your weekend lova. only wanted to be some kinda friend..yeahhh baby i could never steal you from anotha..such a shame our friendship had to end.. PURPle Rain puuuuuuurple rain...puuurple raaain purrrrrrple rain.yeah.."mhm. *replay* woops. now natalie merchant is going and i want to hear this. *sings*
"Do you remember the way that you touched me before,
all the trembling sweetness
I loved and adored...
Your face saving promises
whispered like prayers.
I don't need them."
okay. enough of this depressing shit. IM HAPPY. I have alot of things to be happy about! i miss sarah tho..:( she needs to come back here!
"Hi sarah. Hi lindsey. Hi Des. Hi nick. Hi..michelle. Hi rita! ok.. im forgetting alot of people but thats okay. i have.. er.. short term memeory. -_-.
okay this update has no point.
HI ELLIE!!!
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10 bands you've been listening a lot to lately
01 - yellowcard
02 - sevendust
03 - nickleback
04 - the nixons
05 - john mayer
06 - Taking Back Sunday
07 - finch
08 - evanescence
09 - trapt
10 - bright eyes
9 things you look forward to
1 - 4th of july
2 - possibly seeing tyler
3 - getting my car
4 - getting my licence
5 - going shopping this weekend
6 - camping out
7 - auditioning for the next A.I.
8 - summer
9 - this next level of competition
8 things you like to wear
1 - my little converse type shoes
2 - my blue faded jeans
3 - 2 shirts at once
4 - my mardigras beads
5 - workout clothes
6 - pagoda watch
7 - toe socks
8 - beanies
7 things that annoy you
1 - showing off
2 - being way naive
3 - sitD shutting down
4 - people thinking its my job to keep a conversation going
5 - people thinking that if you dont go to church that you arent christian. people can be so dumb. you can be at church and not even know God.
6 - telling my mother i dont wanna hear it and then keep saying the same thing over and over
7 - anal rentivness
6 things you say most days
1 - no way
2 - goijus!
3 - oh my fucking fuck
4 - are you serious!
5 - laugh my ass off
6 - oh my god
5 things you do everyday
1 - sing
2 - eat pasta
3 - laugh -interpretation: talk to sarah.
4 - get online
5 - feed the dogs. i have such and interesting life
4 people you want to spend more time with
1 - My neice Stevie
2 - my friends
3 - all my sisters and my brother
4 - my dogs ..yeah yeah.. not a person but whatever.
3 movies you could watch over and over again
1 - Now And Then
2 - The grinch
3 - Labryth
2 of your favorite songs at the moment
1 - purple rain
2 - your own disaster
1 person you could spend the rest of your life with
1 - i wish i knew his name.
Food for thought.
Be well, miss smurf.
--Nick
LATER!
--Nick
--Nick