Listening to: The faint sound of the fan in my computer
Feeling: freaked
Okay. So I wake up at 1:00 pm to my mom yelling,
"Take out Storm! He has to go pee!" (too late.) "Wake up Jaclyn..."
......."Jaclynnnnnnnn."
"OFuckING KAY!! I'm getting up!" and im thinkin 'just let him
peeeeeee
in the house.. I'll clean it up later...'
It took me so long to get up because part of me was so sleepy that my arms were like jello and the other part of me was numb becasue the bad dream or..I should say Vision
I had just been woken out of. It was yet ANOTHER one about me going back to my old house on Old State Road.
(The one I just had a dream about a few days ago.. read below if you want to know. )
Was this God's way of telling me WHY I was always wanting to leave this planet? Another vision? Was this dream a revealation as to the chaos I was around as a child but never knew it because I was protected?
Now I know the answers to this now...
~As I'm slowly walking all I can hear is the sound of my feet crucnching the dried mulberry leaves beneath my feet as I get closer to the back bedroom window.
It's cold and dark, maybe 2 a.m. in the morning. I'm really here. I'm finally here.
When I look at the window I see there is no security bar like there was before when we lived there. How did I know that I could sneak through the back window then?
So I crack the window open, and crawl through, carefully putting the curtain back down in it's neat place. Frightened that I might have been seen and thought as a burgler I lean down and walk through
the room and out to the hallway. I dont remember what I was looking for. I just needed to go back to this house like I always do and find this ..thing.
As I slowly walk, I hear something. I turn my head sideways and look back to the room and see a young man in white walk across
the doorway in a split second. Pulse is high as I race back to the room ..only to find no one whatsoever. The only different
thing is the window I had just came through was broken and patched up like it had been like that for years. I'm beyond puzzled and start to walk back down the well lit
hallway and pass the bathroom on the left. As I come near the second bedroom door, I see it is opened all the way.
When I come adjacent to the door jam I see a transparant woman leaning on the door. She was beautiful in a long, red, satin dress with gloves up past her elbow, smoking
a cigarette. She gave me a look that pierced through my heart and at that moment I was thanking Jesus outloud and rebuking her. She just laughed in my face. I was in a Holy
Ghost trance. Rebuking this demon that was infront of me. She couldnt be around anything Godly. So she left..but not
for good. The same man I saw walking in the back bedroom was standing infront of the living room window with his hands folded infront of him. I dont know which
side he was on.. he could have been an angle.. The only furniture was a
big black table in the middle of the room. As I got closer all I could blurt out was "I REBUKE YOU IN JESUS NAME. LEAVE
NOW. Classical music started to play from my sterio in the bedroom. They were toying with me, these demons. I run back and hit the power button but it would only turn it to a new song. It got louder and louder.
I run back into the living room and lay on the table and start singing I Believe by Crystal Lewis. And I could feel myself
getting number as my mom started to wake me up and I could hear the winds wrap around my house like God's hands protecting it from being swooped away in the chaos.
So I'm outside in my underwear hooking the dog back up so he doesnt pee in the house.
Not caring because I have maybe one neighbor across the ridge. As I crawled back into my warm bed I thought of the demons who used human faces to disguise themselves
and a hot chill ran down my body.
He's bad... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he can't CUM til you are like......... 3924120397 years old!
everything lil thing u do baby im amazed by u.
i <3 that song. it reminds me of u. cept ur my friend... and im not IN love w/ u but i do <3 yas :) lolol
qwerty
he's still not talking to me.
heh.
=/
blah.
mo0.
hippity h0p.
gsh im so tired. can ya tell? lol
nick... thats who.. hrmz... gunna go check it oooooooooooout. lmao... gawd... heh. =( *tears* crappy song just came on that was on last night when.......................... ill tell ya the rest later
Muwah! Love yous muchoness!!! XOXO!
I miss his... funny, sometimes thoughtful... very... very... hilarous comments. Heh. =/ =(
Yup.
Not fair..............
Girl, you have to much time on your hands... well, uhm... hmm... you have to much time to use your hands, I guess I should say. =P Lol
You gotta get Tyler over there now... so uh... nooooooo waitttttttttt, noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.................. keeping playing nice with your hands and w/e... no tyler tyler bad!!! Lol
Well, stop it and think happy thoughts.
It's probably like a 99.9% chance of someone trying to kill you anways, so don't worry about it. Lolol. =P
Okay, stop commenting me.....!!!!!! Til I catch up or something, hoser. =P
lolly
hmm.... well u ahve to be 3473928499999999999999999999999999999999999999999992222222222222222222222222888888888888888888849012784854546564554545454545434712895712895760126571206487278162837492847691238756981718267598165908 yrs old!
and thats in human years so =P
If so, then okay. You can have him... but be careful............. and good... =P
Okay daughter dearest? Lol
Haha... lma0... omg... you know how hard it was for me to not rip off Kevin's clothes last night and just... right there?!?!?!?!!?
It was SO fricking hard... frustrated me too... (I think it might've pissed him off...=/) but I told Linds I wouldn't, so I didn't. =)
I still do think he's pissed off at that cause of the last few times we've been together and all... Heh. Oh well.
I am not worrying about him just going to relax. *Inhales* Yups. *Exhales*
M00, so when do I get to talk to Tyler??? I'll be good!!!
Okay. I will be nice as pie to him and and and... ask him questions I want to know and not YOU. =)
Yah, but see... Jon's an asshole. I learnt that lesson when he was saying how he likes you but hitting on me and talking about what's-her-face. =/
I ignore him now... but it's fun to message him every once in awhile and say "Jon" over and over and over again and try irriate him. Lolol!
zZzZZz
*Cleans monkey poo from face*
*hangs head*
*mopes around*
*Tag* Now ur it!!
*flings poo back at u*
*takes a bow*
*chuckles*
*runs away scared*
Yup.
I'm so tired. *Yawns*
Bah... Hi. =)
qwerty
qwerty
qwerty
lolly
lolly
lolly
qwerty lolly
I've been sick for awhile... for a few days. But this morning it hit me hard... it sucked. It literally felt as if someone punched me in the stomache so I couldn't breath at all. =/I don't know when I'll find out... hopefully soon. it has to be mailed to victoria (or around there) and then marked and mailed back. so probably a couple weeks. =/ =(
it's going to be torture.. i hate being home alone sometimes. i freak myself out a lot.