Listening to: Coal Chamber - Feed My Dreams
Feeling: hysterical
Caution - This may be quite a lengthy rant. Just warning y'all.
Since the dawn of man, there's always been that elusive element in life, that need to find what's out there and the quest for ultimate knowledge. I have no idea what that has to do with my rant.
I sit drinking Gatorade powder mixed with diHydrogen Oxide (h20 for all those unfamiliar with chemistry terms), and wonder, why do people write in these things?
Why do people have the need to expose themselves in public like this? Is it a need to have someone listen? Is it like church, where people have the illusion of having 'God' listen to them and their problems in hopes that someday, somehow, their problems will be solved miraculously? I'm not ridiculing anybody really, I'm just one of those people who like to know why people do what they do.
Is it like exorcising a demon to write in here those haunting feelings and apparitions scratching the back of our heads giving us grief? Like washing ourselves of sin in the digital river of Babylon.
I guess I'm doing the same by writing in here. But I feel better talking about it, or just keeping it to myself to figure things out. I do admit that sometimes writing something out does give one a sense of clarity and perspective, but it's a little like masturbation, it's relieves some tension, but in the end you just need all out (mind)fuck to fix things. It's like a good mental enema, it's is very cleansing.
But my main conundrum is why? Why do it? Why do anything? Will it affect anyone? Does it help or hinder people to not think for themselves and figure out their own problems?
You know what? In the end, the best reason for doing anything is 'because you can'.
McSteve - "Hey McBob, why did you climb Mt. Everest?"
McBob - "Because I could."
The end??
I might revise this later just to warn you.
coal chamber kicks ass!
sometimes people eavesdrop though, can't say i really mind.
it means i can pretend i am talking to them. that way my sanity seems intact.
Mansoncrackgirl
well, cos i do. just need a place to put my stuff i guess. i wish i had a better reason. ah well.
--ambient