i'm trying to be patient. lately i haven't felt like i'm as good of a christian as i should be. you know how there are those times when God's presence is so powerful you just stand there in awe and you live your life in such amazement and happiness. well it's not that i'm not happy, i just don't feel the closeness right now. it's not a very comfortable feeling. i feel like i should be doing more for God. there is so much more to what i could be feeling, i know because i've felt it before. i've been praying about it, but please pray for me. i can't really explain it. it's like i'm not content with where i stand with God right now. it's a scary thing. i was at church tonight and we watched a movie called "Joshua". it was really good and got me a little more into the spirit. i will just have to continue to be patient. but why don't i feel more? i'm very confused. luv u all and God bless! *manda*