patrick and i are unofficially "together"...or whatever you want to say. lol. man oh man...that boy makes me smile. GAH! of course i saw him this weekend. of course we held hands and cuddled. of course we hugged. i asked him if we'd ever go out..he said after a while - might sound to you as if nothing will ever happen...however that's the way it all started 3 years ago so ye that has little faith..get some. lol. it's so perfect in an aweful sort of way. it's hard to be so far away, but it's more than worth the distance. i went with whitney(his cousin) and jennifer(his sister) today and we went shopping. when we got back to his house i got to play with the baby ducks. i love the farmlife. he has cows..it's so cute. haha...i stayed at whitney's house this weekend so all weekend i heard how everyone knew patrick and i were gonna get back together b/c we've liked each other ever since i moved. his family knows it, whitney's family knows it, and now the rest of my family knows it. lol. we watched the notebook at whittey's last night. me and patrick were sharing a recliner..heh. he had to cut his curly hair off today for work. i haven't seen it yet but i'm kinda scared. not that it matters what his hair looks like....but for any of you who know me at all you know i love curly hair..esp. his. it's insane....i'm so open about me and patrick. i even told my mom like everything like it was no big deal. i can't wait till school's out. i have to work really hard right now though. i have to convince myself and my parents that i won't let my grades drop b/c of all the extra distractions. i got home and i started crying. my emotions are so incredibly mixed right now it's insane. i know i live here, and i'm fine with that b/c there are people i love here (friends and family). however, i have people i love down there too...and it's really hard to be away from patrick so long. i cried b/c i felt so relieved and so ecstatic to finally be close to patrick again, but i also cried for the fact that i knew i wouldn't have a normal relationship - i'm gonna have to work harder at it than normal relationships. but i'm ready and willing. bring it on. i'm very tired on the other hand. *sigh* but i had a good easter. how was everyone else's? i hope you had a good one! welp i'm gonna go sit on my butt and watch tv w/ my sister. lol. i love you guys...i know eldon makes me happy but don't feel left out b/c you do too. take care guys. God bless! ♥manda