it takes a lot to make me laugh...i mean really laugh. unfortunately i was not blessed with a cute little giggle whenever i think something is amusing - just a hah here and there. as a matter of fact, i've got the strangest sense of humor (aside from my brother of course) than most of the people i know. even weirder (if you've known me long enough) u know that sometimes i just burst into fits of laughter for no reason at all. and when i really start laughing it's nearly impossible to stop. in the process of my craziest laugh i make some highly sporadic and disturbing noises which i can't even describe. maybe one of these days you'll get to witness the insanity..but until then you'll just have to ponder it. ********************************************** and there's something in the way you laugh and it makes me feel like a child. aspects of a life they confuse me, you and your thesis amuse me. after an afternoon with you. and your rich brown eyes your lips and your dark hair. elbows and exposed knees tossin towards your ceiling. face to palm, tear to tear, and mouth to tongue heart to ground, heart heart heart to ground oh heart oh heart oh heart to ground i am in love. ********************************************** on a more serious note.....i really miss him. like really really. this is hard. i didn't sign up for this. how did this happen? why didn't i spend more time with him? i didn't realize that 3 years later i'd still be looking back and wanting..needing him. i don't care if it takes him forever to answer..or call..or that he doesn't admit anything he feels. though i know it would kill me if i even got close again. i couldn't deal with that pain again. when every song reminds you of him and your dreams are no longer yours to choose. i don't care that i would have to split up my weekends between here and there. i do care about his lack of commitment though. so in the end i'm still being hurt - just by the opposite of the latter. "oh heart, oh heart to ground (sigh), i am in love" ~jason mraz. hello hello....woowoo!! thanks court!