hey guys...family life isn't goin so great right now. aparantly we are banned from seeing my grandpa - long story but it's not good stuff. i feel horrible for my parents..i just don't know what to do anymore. i want to stand up for them so they don't have to mess with the whole thing but no can do. i'm just a kid. well my sister and her bf are here for the weekend so that's good. they just left though to get away from the drama...i can't say that i blame them one bit - i wish i could do the same w/ the bf i don't have. i wish courtney were here..i miss her so much. she's always so happy and positive. i need that optimism in my life. it keeps things going. nice way to spend my saturday huh? gosh, i just feel like crying. blah. i feel like rolling up into a little ball and disappearing even though i didn't do anything. the situation is just so bizarre. wow..i have to go call heather, this is too much. bye guys. God bless u..He's there, promise! *manda*