i feel like a 20 year old..or at least older than i am. i feel graceful and mature...responsible. like i should be doing all i can while i'm living under my parents' roof. i feel determined. inspired. i know they say don't waste your youth, keep it as long as you can. i understand that...really i do. yet i almost feel like skipping around a little...try to be older for a while. guys ripen when they are older..they mature. and they want mature in return - i wish mine wasn't so hidden. long term . that'd be nice .