*eldon was amazing...yet i had the urge to come back home b/c i knew there would be something waiting for me when i got back... -my sister got a new car..she's very excited. with good reason though, it's cute and looks like it'll be a good first adult car for her and future kids. *i'm apprehensive to share anything about guys right now. everything seems to be changing quickly and i'm afraid to post feelings that could possibly quickly change. i do know one thing though, my faith grows stronger every day and i can't imagine my life without God. *i watched an amazing documentary about one of the girls that was killed in the columbine shooting. her father spoke in a church about the amazing story. she knew, was absolutely positive, that God had a purpose for her and that purpose was to die. she knew it, she embraced it, she loved God unconditionally and gave her life for Him. it really put things into perspective for me. life is so short...we're just here on vacation until we go home~we're just too caught up in the world to realize that there's something a billion times better waiting for us. *i realized in the past 2 days just how immature i am. i've always thought of myself as a very mature individual but it seems i've been fooling myself. things are changing and i like it. *i'm over patrick. well...working on it but i'm getting much closer. i don't understand how i could have been so blind. he's such a jerk and i fell for it. i'm glad he was though. now i know i don't have to put up with so much crap from a guy to be completely in like and for him to like me back. and i finally realize it wasn't meant to be. thank goodness. *i really do have a new appreciation for my sister. God knew what he was doin when he put us together. *cheerleading practice today was truly great. i feel like it's all off to a good start already. honestly though, i haven't been putting much thought into it with everything else that's going on. *i love you guys...sorry it's been so long since i've written, i just got my internet back. take care & God bless!!! ♥manda ......one more thing...is anyone else overly conscious about everything around them? who's looking at you, what everyone else is doing, who's in the car beside you when you're waiting for a stoplight to change green? i used to be like that..all the time. i hated it because i was aware of everything. i don't want that anymore though....just wondering.