i have a confession to make.....last night i bought a half gallon of turtle cheesecake ice cream at culvers.....and i ate some for breakfast this morning. lol. i'm such a freak. my flute quartet got a 2 at solo and ensamble last night. woowoo! it was much more than i was expecting. i woke up with the realization that i might have my first job soon, summer is getting closer and closer, cheerleading tryouts are in a week, i don't have marching band or summer school this summer, i turn 17 this year, both my brother and sister are getting married next year and moving out, soon i will be the only child stuck with my parents, this year i'll be a junior...this list goes on and on....... about patrick.....i do still like him, and for a while things seemed like they might work. maybe they still will, idk, i'm just going to let whatever happens happen and try to look past what i want and put what God has planned before my hopes. i haven't called him in 3 whole days....and he hasn't called me either. i'm waiting...if he doesn't call in a couple of more days then i guess i'll just have to wait and see what happens. i'm afraid to try and make things work anymore...not that i don't want them too or that i'm not willing to...i'm waiting to see his reaction. how does not talking to me affect him? i guess i'm taking a dramatic pause in conversation just as antony did in his funeral oration to hear the crowd's reaction. other than that i'm happy. i have a lot of hw to do...i think i'm going to spend most of my day on that. maybe i'll go shopping - haven't done that in a really long time. ********************edit********************* it did effect him, he did notice, he called, things are better than before :) cheer tryouts in a week! ahhhhhh.....i've been so lazy....somebody make me practice!!! wah! and i went shopping...got the cutest stinkin lil shoes for 15 buckeroos. & a 10 dolla shirt from forever 21..AND mom bought me some khakis for my job...they'd better call me tomorrow! lol. i'm kinda happy tomorrow's monday...i'm so ready to battle another week - bring it on! i love u guys....really, i promise. God bless u guy! *muah* ♥manda