my heart is beating at like 100 bpm. i haven't been able to figure out what to do about patrick, nor have i been able to get him off my mind. so i sat in my room for 5 minutes dialing a few digits of his number then changing my mind and hanging up. i finally said the heck with it and called him....of course he didn't answer...nothing new and i shouldn't be surprised. i wasn't, however, strong enough to leave a message. what am i doing? this isn't right. i don't even understand what's going on but i...........AHHHHH he just called me back!!! lol. please don't comment on this entry...i might be crazy but i'm crazy bout that kid. 'nuff said.