i'm sitting here, listening to my country mix (the cd i made with a bunch of sad country songs that bring back memories of eldon) while talking to patrick and heather and now garrick and feelings are just flyin off the wall. honestly, i don't even know what's going on anymore. i was so sure. now i'm not. at all. wow...this just needs to stop. but it's not going to. that's not cool. wow i'm cold. ok. so my sister is officially gone. bye meg, luv u! we bid her farewell today. the house just feels empty now.......these songs aren't helping any! lol. do you ever get that feeling that you could choose between living with something and wanting to hang on to it? yeah, well it sucks. i want to live in a country song. they're always so sweet. i want to be the damsel in distress that finally gets rescued. i want to be the sleeping beauty that gets kissed by the handsom prince. i want to be swept off my feet. if only right? haha. well enough with the dreams...i need to come back to reality. night all..luv u and God bless! *manda* *~*sigh*~*