* * * * ** gosh i love this song. this whole month is just....making me really confused...and mad and happy all at the same time. they have "love" specials on abc family and everyone is talking about their plans for valentines day. i'm a little jealous of how easily people can be content. ok try very jealous. i am all too easily discontent. i seem to be most content when i'm alone..is that weird? i mean of course i love hanging out with people and everything but there's just something about spending a little alone time....after all, nobody understands me better than me. ehh..oh well. i'm bound to find someone in time right? when it's the right time to find someone i will...simple as that i suppose. the only thing i have to work on is patience. * * * * * ~you smile as you bat your eyes rollin them to the left then back again girlfriend i think it's time we had a new definition~ *gotta love that adam rhinehardt* * * * i've been really emotional lately..watch out guys! lol. i kinda flipped out today bc of band. i mean obviously i hate the class...but i have to stay after on a half day for solo and ensamble practice. which was the same day i was planning on going to eldon and i can't now. good. that was the last straw...i officially abhor it now. ** * * * *** * * so i came home and ate junk food like no other. i've actually been really good about eating that kinda stuff lately but today was just one of those days where you crash and you don't give a crap what you eat as long as it's chocolate....or cheez-its in my case (and courtney's). heh. ** * * * but tonight my parents aren't going to be home and i'm sure matt and ashley are going out for dinner as usual..so i'm going to study and then work out. i'm excited - i need something to focus this energy towards! ya know, i kinda wish that i could have my own song..about life and love and failed relationships, hopes and dreams, wouldn't that be somethin? ya. p.s. anyone wanna go see the wedding date with me tomorrow night?