Lately I've noticed how much you've changed Even though you swear you're the same// WOW...2day is the conclusion to the worst week of my life...as of right now, i am dying of stress head/body aches...and of course because of my horrific week, he has to be even more of an asshole than usual...today's gonna be a long boy vent... all he ever wants to talk about is--of course--who he's in freaking love with..no sympathy for those of us who feel the same for him... **ahem...** all he ever wants to do is talk about her..and that's cool except when it gets freaking d u l l...the same thing happens every weekend...he cuts me off of another meaningful (2 me) conversation to go out and have a grand old time, then procedes to come home and blah blah about how much fun he had while i am sitting at home twiddling my thumbs... i know i know, i have no right to complain ..it's not like he's my property.. but it feels nice to say the things i never can...so anyway...we had these conversations about him being my friend and all because that was the basis of our 2nd relationship.. what about the 1st you ask? thats a story all on its own..either way we hated each other for a few months last year but then magically became friends..now since august, i have been trying to get this kid to be my damn friend at least...i thought it would never happen...and finally, about 2 months ago, something happened that i'm like "ok he is my friend"..i was content...THEN he started liking this new girl...it all went downhill from there...he has deff changed, yet he does not see it...hes turning into a freaking pop-tart (soft in the middle)... he says/writes things he wouldn't normally do and it really started to scare me...but then, suddenly, as most assholes do, he became great friends with her best friends..pretty slick huh?...well that's cool until you see little old me jumping up and down with flashing yellow lights yelling "talk to me talk to me!" because thats def what its like nowadays...so life in the love department pretty much sucks...more on him at a later date..since he absorbs so much of my damn time and energy...which goes to show, never fall in love with a hick... After all that, i realized how oh so dumb it sounds, but i figure its better to be worried about a teenage relationship than cocaine or something..it all works out in the end.. it's 11.31 and i watched footloose by myself on a friday night..what a great movie...also doesn't help im in love with kevin bacon =) well, i'm out for now...and i made a promise to forget this schmuck and make these entries more interesting..i sound like a damn spanish soap opera...hasta... r0cking 0ut of here m/ ~jean