2day was an energetic day for me! I've been really lazy lately, and my mom made me clean my room for the first time in...a long time...so i cleaned that and my closet took me about 5 hours...3 hours on just my shoes...then i decided i was going to paint my wall...so i came to the conclusion that i wanted something that whenever i looked at it, i would remember this energetic day and hope that i would stay energized...so i found the Chinese symbol online for energy and muraled a 2-ft. painting on my wall...it looks pretty freaking awesome...it only took me all damn day... For some reason, my computer was puking all day yesterday, so i was unable to write in my diary... after waiting for 2 months for June 15th, it finally came yesterday--the premiere of Sex & the City!! I absolutely love that show but could only watch it when i was in NY, so now i can watch it all this week and for the rest of the summer! that makes me quite excited...i love it so much because that's how i want to be when i live in the city after college...it gives me hope to survive the next couple years in this hole aka PA... That's all for now...i have to go clean up and maybe strike up a conversation with someone relatively important...out like a trout... "Real" I am what I am I'm super fortified hundred proof girl with a band And I'm a velveteen rabbit made of steel with a plan I'm not your seventeen girl but its not worth a can Of worms, I'm not your beauty queen I'm not the girl in glamour magazine I'm not running for miss popularity Cause I won't be what I can't be But I want to be real I want to find out who I am And I will find my way to heal And I will find my voice my stand I am who I am I am woman hear me roar and I am salt, I am sand A million starfish stranded, landed, I'll throw back what I can I'll save the planet, change the world, I'll make a one girl stand I've got better things to do than be shown off I won't be the doll you lock up in a box Don't expect me to be anything I'm not Cause I won't be what I can't be Approval is your sword Popularity your crown But I'm not one of your subjects, you can't bring me down You say I lose your approval if I'm not cool like you Well, here's a newsflash for you - I've got nothing to lose Your laughter is hallow because I don't care You look down on me, but I'm not there I've got nothing to prove and nothing to lose Nothing to prove and nothing to lose And if I never find a place that I can call my own I will have tried I will've been free I'll be alive as long as I'm still trying to be me As long as I'm still trying to be me r0cking out of here ~jean m/