i am so stressed out. it's the summer...the time where you're supposed to have fun and get a job and be a teenager. but i cant do that because i have band . it sucks . no one thinks that it takes up any time but really it does, especially for me. i have to make up all these routines and teach them and it's already the middle of july and i don't have anything done. it's like there is so much to do but i can't sort it out and do it one at a time and all my bandfront girls quit and i really can't do it all...the only one that had hope now pulled something in her body and wont be able to help me or do routines with me. i am really getting frustrated. i have to quickly make the routines and figure out when i'm going to teach them. plus i have to read both my books and do the stuff and do the math for school and people are on my ass about college and stuff...its really wow...i figure now im back from vacation i can start working hard but this is so not me...no one understands what I'm going through and whenever i try to tell someone it always goes back to talking about them and their problems...it's just frustrating.. and for some reason, i figured that when i got back from vacation for 10 days, all my friends would be happy to see me, but i didn't get a single message..it was depressing...i wanted to come home so bad and now that I'm here I want to leave...nobody gets me and i'm not who i used to be...i hate who i am now ...that was needed... r0cking out of here, ~jean m/