so yeah this weekend rocked my cock...I spent it at Jared's..always a fun time the two of us.. Friday went to the basketball game and I can't stand the claustrophobia so I hung back and stood by myself haha...then we went to the mall and movies (Anthony showed up too...)...and, after much drama, saw Hitch..it was pretty good...but we were mad tired. Saturday we watched movies all day and just hung out...went bowling at night (Anthony there..yet again...) and those plans were kinda mixed up and I got a little angry but I'm over it... Today we just ate food and watched a movie until I had to leave and go to the hospital to see my dad (he's doing good!!) So next weekend we're going to Ohio!! I'm absolutely so excited haha...I can't even wait I wish the week was over...Jared doesn't seem as excited but...I'll make it fun haha so I think he got mad that I wasn't my usual, fun self this weekend but it was really hard for me because I had alot on my mind with my dad and everything...sorry about that anyway =) the hardest things to say are the words that mean the most so I'll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know the easiest thing to fake's a feeling to fool someone else and I've been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell I could call but I know that you won't be there to pick up the phone you don't have time for me I could call but I know you won't get the phone don't have time for me I hate myself for loving you like this I hate myself for hating myself just enough to love you |bayside|