I hate it here where I live...yet another Friday night I have nothing to do....everyone keeps telling me "if you didn't live so far away we'd hang out"...deff don't want to hear that...it makes it so much worse...my mom is mad at me again and told me I'd suck at being a mother...the other day she told me she hated me...all of my friends either have work or other plans so I'm stuck here with my family...I can imagine the night I'll have...it's only fucking 5.00 and I'm already bored.... why the fuck can't you talk to me about anything?!?! I try so hard to be a fucking great friend and actually take notice when something is wrong and--yet again--I get pushed out of the way...fuck you then, deal with your own shit...even though that's apparently what you want, then fuck you...I'll stop caring, cause everyone always fucks me over anyway.Marian sucks and so does everyone in it who think that they actually have the right to do whatever the fuck they want....thank God the real world isn't all like this shithole of a school I'm in right now...full of fucking assholes and phonies...all of them. The things that are important in life are not whose fucking who or how many hours until the next time someone can get drunk and have a good time. Life isn't about treating people like shit to make yourself feel good...it's about true, lasting relationships and people treating others like human beings. Fuck what other people think...giving into conformity is the worst thing anyone can do...and that is Marian in a nutshell. I'm so fucking sick of people claiming not to like someone and then hang out with them...be true to what you feel for God sakes...I'm sick and tired of me breaking my fucking neck trying to be your friend and you choosing other people over me who don't even fucking LIKE YOU as a person....open up your eyes and realize you have people who genuinly care about you and stop pushing them out of your life. you stupid cheating lying fuck you think you're cool--I think you suck. I hate you. fuck you. go away. with things you do and things you say my endless patience is getting through the blade of my knife is pointing at you do they pay you good for being such an asshole or are you so stupid you do it for free? ||type.iq.negative||