...you said you read me like a book but the pages are all torn and frayed... You wanna know how I feel? I feel like I’m always the one that gets screwed whenever you feel like being on good terms….I’m sick of being the one that cares about fucking everyone and that no one gives a shit about back…I want people to know that I sacrifice so much shit that no one even knows about for the simplest things that I feel I should get out of life…I love it when I’m the person you both come and fucking talk to when you’re bitching at each other, but all I get in return are headaches…I listen constantly to the petty shit and complaining from both of you and then when it’s all over and done with, you two are happy and I’m the one who always winds up getting hurt…I’d love for someone to realize that being a third wheel in a relationship has to be THE suckiest things in the world….especially when you happen to be in love with one of those people…I love it when I know that something is up but I can’t be privy to the information for some strange reason…what do I have to do to prove myself worthy as a good friend? Because I’m pretty damn well sure that tomorrow I can stop caring and see what happens…I would probably be a lot less stressed out and sad than I am now…but no one ever knows how sad or stressed out I am because I don’t tell people shit because even my closest friends I can’t trust…things that seem so unimportant to them that they think they can fix with an “I‘m sorry” or an “I wasn‘t thinking”…well that doesn’t change what was said, does it?! Just my fucking luck… sometimes I wonder if I’m even a value to anyone until I realize that the “friends” I have are fucking shit…..they don’t care about me and I care too much about them…anything I would do, no one else would do for me, and then I wonder why I’m so fucking neurotic or why I can’t stop being so depressed or why I’m the bitch all the time…well it’s about time that someone looked a little bit into my life before they assumed anything else about me….whether it be my capacity as a friend or my fucking emotions as a human being.