oh..so get this! Usually, I wait until 11.00pm for when Ed gets home so that I can talk to him and lo and behold! he gets on at 9.30 tonight! awesome I think to myself as I patiently wait his message...doesn't come..so I ask this kid "hey is he there?" and I get the answer "yea but he's working on something"...alright I can deal with that...message him anyway....I couldn't stand the waiting...talk for a little, then, me being the great person I am (and the martyr) decide to say “hey just message me when you get back …I’ll be here”..so he says “I’ll be done soon”…blah blah…wait around, check back on my computer and what does his away say???? “leave it for tomorrow”!! Isn’t that just fucking great?! So there you go, he left me hanging, SO unaware of the permanent damage it did to my heart….moving on…. I so feel like I’m being left out…It started Tuesday and I can sense that this season might not be the greatest for me…all of a sudden their best buds again and wow Jean has only been here listening to them both for how long? It makes me feel like “wow thanks for all that time you put into being our friend but we’re good friends again so go fuck yourself” It’s just this bad feeling I have that I can’t shake…although I still do believe that everything happens for a reason…I’m out for now…too pissed to breathe… consider me your friend until you do that stupid shit again I believed all you told then you left me hanging out so cold ~Mest .:. HaPpY BiRtHdAy MoMmY! .:. r0cking out of here, ~jean m/